**Trigger warning**

I found out I was pregnant on 12/9 15 dpo and my period was a day late. I had my blood test done on 12/14 and my HCG was 1,204.

Everything was going fine and progressing "normal" my morning sickness had arrived at 5 weeks and I was totally sick 24/7. I figured this was normal until 12/24. I had my phone appointment with the OBGYN nurse to go over my medical history before my 8 week appointment (1/10).

After that phone appointment I went to the bathroom at 1:15 and I rea...

Our fur babies (cupcake and Freya) investigating my mother's Day flowers. #furbabies #momlifephotos

Who needs Prince Harry when you have a Viking? 💍

Best Friends. ☀️☀️ #FunInTheSun #MomLifePhotos

#funinthesun #momlifephotos 🌴☀️

365. 💔
It's been 365 days since I found out you were gone before I even knew you existed.
365 nights.
365 days of "what if?" plaguing my mind.
365 days of gratitude for my sweet Ivan and beautiful Emmy.
365 trying to walk past the baby section at the store.
365 days of learning to heal and trust my body.
365 moments.
365 days spent reflecting on the incredible support system I have.

365.

I made it 365 days I can make it 365 more. 👼
#miscarriage #pregnancyloss

My three year old is crazy. He's always jumping and climbing all over me. He literally just got me right in the vag with his knee. Come on bro, you were almost 10lbs at birth and already wrecked me once. 🤦🤦

I'm minding my own business watching Netflix via my Xbox one. Suddenly some random user "cast" into my hubby's account and took over our TV! Apparently it's common. But it freaked me out because immediately those super creepy adults YouTube kids videos started playing. I grabbed my son and woke my husband up. He fixed it, but it's still super weird. 😱😱😰😰 Wtf????

The good part about moving is that I am forced to purge. I'm finally throwing away my positive pregnancy tests from 2014 when I was pregnant with Ivan. I know I'm not the only one who has saved pregnancy tests #noshame 😉 However, It's bittersweet throwing them away. I don't know if I'll ever see a positive pregnancy test again. After our loss last May I'm weary of what the future holds. 🖤 #tbt #throwback #throwbackthursday #miscarriage

Loose up to 40lbs in three months WITHOUT exercise?? Sounds totally healthy. 😒🤔 Stupid pyramid scheme crap on my FB feed. 💩 #justsaynotopyramidschemes #nomagicpill #itdoesntwork