So what do I do when I've tried everything? I've gone to counseling ,I've been hospitalized, I've signed up for different programs,ive done so much to help myself to be a better person and ease myself out of depression to be a good mother,and I can't. I no longer want this life,I don't even want my son. I feel like a lost cause a waste of space and I'm not sure how much more I can take.