can't sleep and I'm starving. After arguing with my fiance I just went to bed without eating anything. I've been starving all night:(
arguing with him definitely makes me feel so overwhelmed with life. It takes so much out of me, and exhaust me. I like to just stop and move on, because we aren't getting anywhere. He'll keep it going and throw it in my face for weeks. thing is it's over the most stupidest things. why argue so much over stupid little things that shouldn't even matter that much? H...

High-risk appointments are back to once a week. my sonographer does the babies measurements first before the doctor. She was completely off on their weight today. their usually 6-7oz apart. Today she said they were 1oz apart. making one 3lbs 15 oz and the other 3lbs 14oz. my doctor redid the measurements and couldn't understand why she was so off. Twin a is 3lbs 14oz and can't remember exactly with B. about 8oz difference. since his weight seems to be falling just a bit, their gonna keep a close...

I'm feeling extremely depressed. I just want to get away but have no where to go. Just drive around and not go home for a few hours. I don't want to be anywhere near my fiance. I can't seem to speak with him lately without arguing. He's making me feel like I shouldn't even be here anymore. And I know I shouldn't feel this way, and its not healthy. But I do feel this way. I wish I had some where to go. Just sit in my car by the creek, for a few hours I guess. Me being pregnant and him arguing and...

Ahhh I hate these damn leg cramps, I get at night. Why do they have to be so bad during pregnancy. I really don't think you can completely get rid of them till after labor. The further along I get the stronger they get. :( I will not miss this part of pregnantcy.

I was in such a bad mood this morning till I got to see my twins on the screen. they definitely helped me relax. in a way I'm ready for time to go just a little faster. then at times I know I need to take it slow, and enjoy it. because I may not get pregnant again, or it maybe a long time before it happens again. I don't want to miss this feeling of them kicking.

My twins are still doing so good. there's still lots of fluid. cervix is high and closed. it's been staying at 50% effaced for 4 weeks now. it hasn't changed since my last appointment which is great. I went ahead and did another ffn test. even though it's expensive and I can do payments on it. I just want to know for sure. But of course this is my last one. baby A heart rate is 170 and B is 145, his eyes were also opened. and we watched them practice breathing. what's cool with twins is, I can...

I've been getting more menstrual cramps and it has started to run across my lower back. It's not a constant pain but I've been getting it here and there since Friday. More and more BH, but I'm told to expect that with twins. Of course I know what real labor feels like and real contractions. I wonder if this is gonna lead up to the real thing, soon. Since its what happened with my first born. I'm 4 weeks away from my c-section. So I really really hope I don't go into early labor. I feel I can mak...

idk why my husband can't hear his alarm when it's right next to his face. it goes off till I wake him up. and he sets several. I don't understand that. I'm a light sleeper and it wakes me up fast. him and my son can sleep through anything. I could be screaming and they wouldn't hear me.

I don't remember being so hormonal in the third trimester like I was with my first born. maybe I was. Anything can set me off or make me cry. it's pretty annoying. If I get yelled at for anything I go off. My husband doesn't know what to think. I'm glad I work behind a computer at home and not with anyone, because I get some rude emails from employees about work at times, and I'm sitting here cursing at the screen lol. thankfully they can't hear me. I can get it off my chest and email something ...