I have my son now, I'm also engaged and I'm so grateful for them both. But a few years ago, I had 2 miscarriages(never found out the sex and never had a logical reason to why it happen) with my ex boyfriend. I honestly still think of my 2 babies and wonder how much different my life would have been if they were here. But I do believe god has his plans for everyone and maybe it just wasn't my time to have children, or maybe it was just the wrong mate. Either way, I hope they watch over me and my son and are proud of how I am raising my son. (He is technically their step sibling right?lol they have completely different fathers (my son I had with the man I'm engaged to and my 2 miscarried babies had the same father which was my ex)) I just needed to vent this out. I honestly never had this convo with my fiancé. We just are so happy with our son🙂