Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday…

awesome @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

OK I'll look for you

My name on there is mairita

@ekks.mamma

yay!!!!! lol =)

yup right now @1stbaby

yay are you going to make one ? =D @ekks.mamma

sure!!!

Well it's a chat app and get to know other moms. and maybe we can chat there too. @ekks.mamma

No I haven't what is it? @1stbaby

that why I think like that....

and I bet I can't wait. and omg really ? I didn't know that hey did you hear about this app called smile mom @ekks.mamma

what did he say?@1stbaby let me tell you once your baby is here all your going to want to do is look at him lol its going to feel like a dream and if you breastfeed your belly goes down fast

I told him something about it this morning on the phone @ekks.mamma

what are you going to tell him?@1stbaby

And I don't want that and he'll be the only one paying bill well everything and I know how he is. @ekks.mamma

yea that would have me worried@1stbaby

And more I'ma be depending on him cause I'm not working. I don't like that.@ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

that is very you true..I don't know if I could live with someone that I'm going to fight with all the time

there's 2 reason why I'm scared I don't want to leave my mom by herself I'm so close to her. I really love my mom. and 2 cause I know julio and me are always going to fight. @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

I want to ask why but I kinda got the feeling that I already know why

Yeah but I'm scared @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

He does?

so true but that's not what I'm scared of julio wants to look for an apartment. @ekks.mamma

don't be scared I was totally freaked out of my mind and scared but tell you what my mom was the biggest help yes i wouldn't have done it with out logan but I wouldn't have been able to do it with out my mom and after you have him it feels like your in a dream the best dream of your life @1stbaby and everything that you go through is 110 % worth it

I'm scared @ekks.mamma

Really omg ouch ! @ekks.mamma

that is very true

I've heard when you get induced it hurts more @ekks.mamma

that is what I wanted but I was having horrible back labor it was so bad that I couldn't handle it and I was only 4 cm @1stbaby

I don't know my mom said that later on cause of that it'll mess up your back , I want to go all natural i hope i can do it my mom like girl you better. @ekks.mamma

the epidural totally worth getting!! they say your in so much pain from contractions that you don't notice it I had 2 contractions during it but even with out contractions it doesn't hurt to get it at all! @1stbaby

@ekks.mamma

No need to apologize I totally understand. and I bet

Sorry it's been taking so long to get back to you.. it went well it was hard but it was totally worth it @1stbaby

omg I saw his picture his so cute. how did it go? @ekks.mamma

he is here had him at 6:39 tonight @1stbaby

how's everything going any baby yet? @ekks.mamma

I don't want my son thinking like that. that's why I'm thinking about the most. @ekks.mamma

yeah that's not right hun im so sorry @1stbaby

I know but it hurts that the "so called the love of your life" thinks like that. ..... @ekks.mamma

awww I'm so sorry just remember you always have jacob and he'll always love you more then anything@1stbaby

I feel like crying @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

I don't blame you hun. it's probably the best thing for you

I need a brake from this relationship @ekks.mamma

that is not right!!! you have every right to call your self American just as much as he or I do just bc your mexican doesn't mean your not American! I have a mix of french German Cherokee Indian that just my blood line just like your blood line is mexican and just like whatever his blood line is he needs to grow up!! he does not need to talk to you or and woman like that I am so sorry hunny!!@1stbaby

Me:Smh wow I can't belive you don't talk to me for real bye

Julio: ? You're getting hurt why???? You're from chicago. Lol If at the moment where we met on tagged and you told me you were illegal I would've not tryed to get with you no more or keep developing feelings cause I know that would be a bad time. But what's the big deal with you now??? I don't understand.  Stop with your dramatic shit.

Me: I don't want to talk to you at all for real

Julio : Why ask me questions, if all your gonna do is bitch about it and start drama. Grow the fuck up. Is it gonna be like this with every question? If it is? Don't ask any? Or don't expect an answer. You get hurt over anything these past couple days, you can't even accept things or accept an opinion. We can't even have a conversation about anything. You get dramatic and want to fight right away. I'm not racist, I'm just saying why would I waste time trying to get with a girl that is illegal,  that ain't gonna work out. And that's the truth, I'm not stupid.  So I can waste thousands fixing her papers, and her parents, nah fuck that shit lol Sorry but if we had just met, I wouldn't want you to be with me if I was illegal.  I would find a girl that is illegal too so then we can both go through that shit. Why am I gonna drag someone down that doesn't need to be bothered with that. That's selfish and inconsiderate of a person to do, I'm not racist. I'm just being honest boo boo. So stop fucking around and finding reasons to fight with me cause the truth of the matter is, I'm getting tired of your shit, drama, and attitude. Grow up cause you're a mommy, and stop being a little kid.

Me: Haha please what ever  bye

Julio: Stupid ass. All you wanna do is fight. Well ok bye, don't text back. I'm not texting you or calling no more. Being a little cry baby ass girl. Can't take a fucking conversation serious or accept the truth. Idk what kind of a person you becoming to be. But I'm not liking it. Fighting over everything. Find me when you need me then. That's the only reason it looks like I'm here for. To get fucked over.

Me: SHUT THE FUCK UP WITH I'M A LITTLE CRY BABY ASS GIRL!!! YEAH YOUR STUPID!!! I'M HALF MEXICAN AND HALF AMERICAN! !! AND WATCH WHEN EVER I GET TO SEE YOU YOUR GOING TO LISTEN TO ME!!!

Julio: That's every mexicans excuse lol. You aren't half American girl, you a straight up mexican. Just cause you were born here in the states doesn't mean your half anything. Both your parents mexican, making you mexican, the only difference is you were born in America and they werent. But ehhhh you could pass for half american. It's whatever. Idc. You are legal. Im not a history teacher, And listen to you cry and yell. Ok that's what you do everytime anyways and then you back to normal, you bipolar as fuck. @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

not at all

I'll send you the conversation witch is kinda long you don't mind? @ekks.mamma

Oh lord what else happen?@1stbaby

No text there's more to it.@ekks.mamma

wow girl I am so sorry did he say this over the phone bc if you were face to face with him If I were you I would have slapped the shit out of him!!!@1stbaby

"I wouldn't have gone out with you from the start, if you were illegal. And that's the truth. Now if you are from mexico and you're legal, that's different. " those are his words @ekks.mamma

he didn't tell you he'd send you back did he?!?!?@1stbaby

And I asked him where if i came from mexico guess what he said @ekks.mamma

wow!!!!!!! I'm sorry but fuck him!!!@1stbaby

not it's not that jacob hasn't nothing to do. it'd that fact the he was being racist with me. Cause i don't know how it came to this but he said he'll send my dad back to Mexico. @ekks.mamma

hun*

where do you want him born at?@1stbaby that is your choice Jun

I'm from here chicago but not my mom and dad. so I'm pretty much mexican. and I asked him what if I wasn't born here? @ekks.mamma

I hope he doesn't have a problem with you being mexican? @1stbaby

@ekks.mamma

It's about me being mexican.

Oh ok@1stbaby

It's a long story @ekks.mamma

why what happen?@1stbaby

yeah. and ehhhh I'm not talking to him @ekks.mamma

I know right!!!! that's how I feel @1stbaby hoes everything with your boyfriend

yea i'ma try to look for another job. I bet it's crazy right. I feel like of was yesterday that I found out I was pregnant. @ekks.mamma

I can't believe it's came this fast I'm kinda in shock I think lol @1stbaby

I don't blame you. I am very excited but I'm nervous

I don't want the same job no more I'm tired of cleaning school. @ekks.mamma omg tmrw the day are you excited?

that's up to you will you go back after you have jacob?@1stbaby

I really thinking of calling my work and saying that I won't be able to go back. @ekks.mamma if so i'ma have to start this right away

make some for you and to sell lol @1stbaby

But what would I sell if i eat them lol @ekks.mamma

hey thats ok too I know I would@1stbaby

I know I can't wait to start buying stuff and sell them. but I'm scared that I might eat them lol @ekks.mamma

that sounds not only fun but that could totally work..@1stbaby,

I really like baking. so I was thinking of making cupcakes and bananas and strawberry cove in chocolate. @ekks.mamma

oh really doing what? @1stbaby

I get dizzy a lot now but I think I found a way to make some money. @ekks.mamma

id ask your dr. but that is totally up to you @1stbaby

shes scared something would happen to me @ekks.mamma

My mom doesn't want me to work at all @ekks.mamma

have you tried to get a job as a bus aid or anything and I can promise you that end the end everything will be ok @1stbaby try not to stress to much

I feel stressed out I've only been called for a day at work and that day I went to the hospital and had to get out early. and since then I haven't been called and my mom telling me that she thinks it's time for me to leave work but ugh i need to pay my bills. @ekks.mamma I wanna cry

whats wrong?@1stbaby

I feel like crying @ekks.mamma

omg nooooo I like my bed but not to be in it all day D= @ekks.mamma

they'll watch it and they might put you on bed rest if it dont get better@1stbaby

Oh my well good luck. everything going to be okay. @ekks.mamma when I went to my last appointment my blood pressure was kinda high

bc my blood pressure keeps getting too high and if it keeps doing that it can hurt my liver

But why are you getting induced? @ekks.mamma

hes coming a week early..@1stbaby, im just nervous

You just need a week no? @ekks.mamma

idk it feels so soon I guess

@ekks.mamma

how come?

yea im kinda freaked out!!! @1stbaby

what!!!! =O for real @ekks.mamma

im being induced sunday night@1stbaby

Yeah he took me.

and oh I see your so close though @ekks.mamma

did he come to the hospital with you? I seen her monday and thats when I went to the hospital for my blood pressure and she said come back Thursday I guess to see if its gotten any better..and if not im not sure if shes going to have me deliver Eli or what shes really going to say@1stbaby

me too julio got kinda scared. and why you have to go did she tell you? @ekks.mamma

well im glad everything is ok I go back to see my drs tomorrow im wondering what shes going to say @1stbaby

@ekks.mamma

everything was okay I went cause of the blood and they did an ultrasound

well im glad everything thing is ok tho.what did they say was wrong?@1stbaby

yea I did I got scared @ekks.mamma

I seen that you posted that you went to the hospital? @1stbaby

@ekks.mamma

I bet it does

its driving me crazy!!! I want to go back to work @1stbaby

Yeah you get bored witch sucks and only being at home I get bored. @ekks.mamma

this bed rest is going to kill me I dont like sitting around @1stbaby

Well that's good. @ekks.mamma

your fine :) yea im home now and everything is soing ok im on bed rest now :/ @1stbaby

omg sorry I just replied bu y are you okay now? @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

soo im in the hospital my blood pressure is 160 over 100

@ekks.mamma

omg yes they aways try to say something to cover it up or anything. Witch is funny.

omg thats no joke!! even when you show them and have proof there wrong @1stbaby

But they think their right @ekks.mamma

yea or hard to understand I feel like im simple easy to please@1stbaby

I'm with you on that. and guys calls us ladies "weird" @ekks.mamma

I know giys make no sense to me @1stbaby

wtf lol okay that's too funny @ekks.mamma

I know there funny and there on there head sets talking to each other lol @1stbaby

Lol that funny living In the same place and playing hahahaha @ekks.mamma

oh well right now hes playing xbox on his tv in our room with my brother but my brother is in his room on his xbox right next door lol @1stbaby

true. that does suck @ekks.mamma

bc any time hes going to need money for anything for Eli hes going to have to ask his mom @1stbaby

why you say that? @ekks.mamma

yea it is but it kinda sucks @1stbaby

That's a good thing why cause that why he won't take money out that's what my mom is doing with me cause I'll go crazy with the money. @ekks.mamma

its hard to save money..logans mom has control over his accounts

julio wants to but he hasn't saved enough for him to to say let's live together @ekks.mamma

are you going too?@1stbaby

Yeah maybe it's just to get use to it. my mom doesn't want me to live with julio @ekks.mamma

maybe...I just hope shell get use to it today was good :) I think yesterday was just a bad day@1stbaby

Smh she has to stop it cause Logan is your bf not hers. and has to stop saying mean things. maybe she's hurt in a way that her daughter is not a little girl no more and takes it out on Logan. who know it's a lot of things. @ekks.mamma

she can just be sharp sometimes but things that she says can be very hurtful@1stbaby

But why would she do that his not even his son to be doing that. @ekks.mamma

bcuz they can be very meam and say very hurt full things I dont want him to feel that hes not welcome happy here or anything like that and yesterday my mom kinda snapped at him and it was just like wow is this how this is always going to be I know that look on his face when he gets his feeling hurt and It kills me @1stbaby

Why you say that? @ekks.mamma

logan moves in Saturday and im afraid that my family is going to push logan away from me @1stbaby

I'ma try. now I only have a month to go I don't count February. and why how come? @ekks.mamma

try to be positive thats really the best thing and dont stress out I had a panic attack today@1stbaby

@ekks.mamma

Yeah it is but I hope it's like that though

@1stbaby,

hey thats a good thing!!!

Well we are trying to start the year right. @ekks.mamma

how is everything going with you and julio

Yeah i know what you mean I'm the same way. my doctor is a girl. @ekks.mamma

I think if shes on call shell be there but im not sure if she will if shes in the office idk ill have to ask monday but I dont want anyone else to deliver him the other dr is a great dr but im comfortable with her you know and the other dr is a male@1stbaby

You should ask cause my doctor told me to let her know cause she wants to be there @ekks.mamma

its totally ok I do that sometimes im like in and out the only thing im nervous about is that she wont be the one to deliver Eli and that another dr will and I really want her too @1stbaby

omg I'm sorry I thought I had responded and well how long do you see the doctor. @ekks.mamma

see my dr never tells me any of that qhen she checked me she said he was head down @1stbaby

@ekks.mamma

Good the baby's head is down already omg =O

how did it go?@1stbaby

@ekks.mamma

I had a doctors appointment today.

@1stbaby,

I was told if your walking sit down and if your sitting try to walk

Yes I was getting scared @ekks.mamma

does your come and go?

yup @1stbaby

They come and go right? @ekks.mamma

I started having Braxton hicks around 32 weeks @1stbaby

I'm scared I'm only 32 weeks.

and yes you will I know you can @ekks.mamma

mine too..yea after she checked me I have lost very little of my plug logan doesnt think ill make it to next week but I do @1stbaby

omg it's kinda hurts I'm getting some cramps they come and go back hurts @ekks.mamma

it kinda hurts baby moves so much now

and for real? @ekks.mamma

are they bad? im dilated to 1 today :) @1stbaby

I'm getting braxton hicks =O @ekks.mamma

Yeah its small and good for the place I'm at. @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

thats not bad at all

@ekks.mamma,

I saw one at Walmart and target their 70 something

im not sure what those are called or how expensive they are @1stbaby

I'ma get one that is kinda shape like an egg something like that. @ekks.mamma

mine really aint that big I have one of those crib liners on it and I had to over lap it twice bc my crib is small @1stbaby

Well I wish I could but i'ma getting a small one @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

mine is dark brown youd have to look online and see if they have other colors

What color I saw one in gray but I can't get it it's to big for the place I'm at. @ekks.mamma

@1stbaby,

I got mine at Wal-Mart less then 200$ they have good deals

No I don't and I'm getting nervous about it @ekks.mamma

do you have one yet?@1stbaby

I know how you feel my place is small and I don't know where i'ma put Jacobs crib @ekks.mamma

my room is so dang fool its not even funny@1stbaby

Oh i see that sucks @ekks.mamma

logan moving in yes but the lizard no it takes up my hole dresser so theres no where but the floor for my hamster to be @1stbaby

You most be excited @ekks.mamma

logans movin in next weekend and my sister is lizard sitting

Lol I know right @ekks.mamma

you should have said shut up and grow up lol@1stbaby

Yesterday I dont know remember how it' start ed but he said oh when we live together I was like ha yeah I don't see that happening he got mad and said shut up don't say that. @ekks.mamma

maybe say something to him about it @1stbaby

hmm

Yea true but I still need to save and julio hasn't give me any money. @ekks.mamma

thats not good but it does give you time to rest so your off your feet at the same time

I know how you feel I haven't been called to work again @ekks.mamma

that is for sure it just sucks @1stbaby

Damm for real but hey something is something. @ekks.mamma

yea thats for sure and my dr has restricted me to only 5 hours of work a day so now my hours are being cut bc of that @1stbaby

yea thats for sure and my dr has restricted me to only 5 hours of work a day so now my hours are being cut bc of that @1stbaby

Yes it did and that sucks @ekks.mamma

I did went way to fast thats for sure I had to work today@1stbaby

@ekks.mamma,

Yes I did and you?

did you have a nice Christmas? @1stbaby

I get called slow poke

Lol I know but she likes making fun of me cause I sometimes can't get up fast like I use too. @ekks.mamma

it almost sounds easier lol @1stbaby

My mom says that i should roll if i don't want to walk lol @ekks.mamma

yes it does it kills my back @1stbaby

And marry Christmas to you too

I just start Getting like that. ugh it's so bad @ekks.mamma >. <

merry Christmas

I am right there with you I waddle @1stbaby

My feet are starting to get swollen I can't even walk right @ekks.mamma

yes it does@1stbaby

omg it sucks @ekks.mamma

I feel yea Eli does the same thing or he trys to push out the front of my belly today he was hurting me

if I drink soda I drink just one can. Jacob want to get out cause he still puts pressure down there. @ekks.mamma

I get that too!! drink water if you drink soda try not to drink as much. @1stbaby

No I wake up in the middle of the night with this strong kicks and it hurts at times. and now I feel like throwing up ugh i hit 8 months already and it's getting hard to get up. @ekks.mamma

like sick or what?@1stbaby

omg I been feeling horrible lately @ekks.mamma

thats good!!@1stbaby

Yeah i know. his trying @ekks.mamma

all couples do but he needs to be there for you @1stbaby

yea and even though we fight lol @ekks.mamma

oh really. well he should be spending alot of time with you @1stbaby

Well I don't know he really doesn't hang out with his friends or anything it's all the time me @ekks.mamma

this sounds horrible but do you feel almost relieved that he didnt go?@1stbaby

Yeah but he didn't go after all. lol @ekks.mamma