dying inside, im so down, i havent eaten and thats all ive done is cry, seeing josh the way he was lastnight made it even harder to leave him, hopefully its given him a reality check to wise up and act like an adult and a responsible father maybe if he sorts himself out we can try again but until then theres no chance, its not happening anymore i love him more than life itself and as much as it killed me and broke me to be apart from him i had no other choice😢😢