well, I had a Dr appt and baby N's heart rate was GREAT, she was so happy to see me still preggers! she said go back to the girl that broke down in my office and was so scared! your baby is resilient!! thank you God for bringing us this far. its been 7weeks, that I've been thinned 50% and I'm so grateful I didn't go into labor during my "20 something weeks". now, let's just make it 6 more weeks and we madeeee it :-) I feel almost every emotion every day and fear is a big one. but I know God is always with me, I'll never be a perfect mother but I'll always do my best, and I'll always know this is my biggest blessing.