I have a confession, I've started to smoke again..its not a lot a puff/hit about once or twice a day. I feel terrible, but what's worse is I feel like its the only way I make it, she reduces me to tears sometimes and her daddy works most of the time ): we're learning to latch and its so stressful):

please don't bash this post, I feel bad enough about doing it and about not being able to bf my daughter, I feel like a failure as a mother