TWW!! 2dpo and on the tww journey. Anyone on the same dpo or close? Haven't decided if I will test at 12dpo or just wait…

Well everyone has left the thread that I've had for month's. I've decided to go on a break. TTC has consumed my daily life and I need to focus on the police reserve program and the police academy this fall and my training.. So I want to thank everyone who I became friends with and chatted with on here... Wishing you all the best... Hopefully I'll be back ? much love and baby dust to you all..

CD 1 on to the next cycle....

No Christmas present for me, BFN, AF due today.. I'm sure she'll be here tomorrow or the next day...

Thank you Sweetdalii...

I definitely will keep you all updated. My fx for everyone here. Hopefully this is it for you JnJ?

@I am Leigh, I'm 8dpo today so I'm one day behind you.. Fx for us...

@Sweetdalii OMG that's so exciting congratulations sweetie, I really hope this is your miracle rainbow baby.. Please keep us updated... Grow baby grow!!!

Okay so I have an update. I know it's been a while but with good reason. Anyways I just found out that that I am indeed pregnant. I don't know the due date because quite frankly I went 2 months without af so I suspect that I have to be like 6 weeks. Idk but I'll find out tomorrow. I'm hoping I can have a full 9 months with a healthy baby at the end. But my fingers are crossed for all of you because everyone here deserves their rainbow so hopefully you guys get it.

Thank you, Sarah... ?

Praying you get your Christmas miracle Jess! x

Officially 1dpo... Tww starts. Hoping for a wonderful Christmas blessing... Lots of sticky baby dust ladies..

Welcome ladies and sending baby dust your way.

@Boogie19 when I had a dream about a positive pregnancy test, I always had one if not that month then soon... Hoping it's that way for you.

My fertile week starts tomorrow... I am out of ovulation tests I normally O on CD 13... So I'm just going to BD every other day and keep my fingers crossed praying we catch a egg(s)...

Same dpo! :)

Currently 2 days past my fertile window, but I believe 6 dpo and anxious. Glad I have the holiday to kind of keep my mind of things and hopefully pass the time a little quicker. I had a dream last night that I got a positive pregnancy test. I hope that's a good sign of things to come.

How are we doing ladies?

Subshine1 there's no need to add you, just chime in when ever you want.

Welcome to our thread anyone is welcome ?

@jnjbaby can u add me plz

CD3 Day 1 of 5mg femara. Have been taking coq10 to help with quality of eggs as well. This is now cycle 11 on femara... Hoping for a BFP soon!

I'm wishing you lots of sticky baby dust. I'm hoping we all get our positives soon

CD 1 on to the next cycle.

Oh no, that sucks. Hopefully you'll get some answers today.. Thinking about you. ?

*sigh* nope I got blood drawn so they're gonna give me some answers Thursday hopefully. But the main concern is that I probably ovulated a lot later than I should've and they don't want to induce a period too soon.

Update Sweetdalii? Hopefully you got some answers today!

Lol thank you at least I know I'm not alone when I say this is a long time. However I think I got the faintest positive this morning and I was hoping it's not just my imagination. Either way I go to the doctor today I'm hoping I can finally get some answers

Good luck,mamaemmot... Sending baby dust your way...

I think I ovulated either yesterday or today (second time this cycle). If we didnt catch at least one of those eggs this month, sheesh!!!!

BFN waiting for AF to show... On to the next cycle...

Whoa that is a long time ? I know it's not unusual to skip a period but maybe if you skip another one you should get checked hun, just to be on the safe side x

Just about 7 weeks ago.... af seriously went completely awol

Fingers crossed for you Jess. Hope this is your cycle xx

Sweetdalii how long since your last AF now? I know how frustrating it is ? my cycles were always all over the place

Well I'm still getting negatives but right now I feel like it's making me go crazy

How are we doing ladies? I'm going to test Saturday morning 3 Day's before AF is due I'm sure it'll be BFN as I have no symptoms..

Elc100, Welcome, I'm sending you baby dust your way. I'm 5dpo and not really thinking about it, trying to occupy my time lol. Fx and baby dust for us ladies! ?

Sweetdalii, I'm so sorry you're going through this torture! Well I am praying for a pregnancy if not then praying for AF to show so you can move on to the next cycle being in limbo is just ridiculous, I feel your frustration. Good luck.. Fx

I'm 1 dpo hoping for a BFP this month!!!

Funny thing is I'm so mellow on a regular basis but the lack of af and no positive test creates stress for me. If I miss a second one on the 25th and I don't have a positive by then im definitely making that appointment

Maybe you could have ovulated later then usual. Or stress maybe? If she doesn't show up make an appointment with your Dr to see what's going on.

Nope just negative after negative. If my body keeps tormenting me like this making me feel pregnant making af late and then testing negative im gonna have to just beg for her to come back so I can try again.

Anything yet?

I bought those today im just hoping I don't have to wait another week to get a positive

Try a first response, fx for your BFP!

Im a week late still feeling pregnant and these stupid cheapies gave me a BFN this morning. Idk I think im going to try a different kind tomorrow.

Very positive Opk today. CD 14 butt propped and legs up... Just keep swimming and fertilize that egg(s) gonna BD tomorrow just in case.. Prayer's and lots of sticky baby dust ladies, as I enter the dreaded tww...

Any news sweetdalii? Hoping you got your BFP!!

Good luck to you both girls. Lots and lots of sticky baby dust heading your way xxx

Fx for you. Right now I'm a day late and still having pregnancy symptoms

OK ladies, praying for lots of baby dust!! I'm entering the fertile week, let the bd'ing begin ....

Lol I found it so much easier the first time when I was clueless to everything and didn't suspect anything out until I was like 6 weeks

Why thank you, Sarah ?

Sweetdalli, ahhh.... the sanity lol

Ummm... I usually cave and start testing on 10dpo if I'm feeling symptoms or not. After so long of getting BFN's it doesn't really bother me because I expect it, I guess. I just push on to the next cycle and continue to pray. I've learned it's best not to get my hopes up and take things day by day..

Right now I'm 9dpo and if what I'm feeling are pregnancy symptoms then I want to get excited and test but at the same time I don't wanna get my hopes up for a let down. Just 5 more days. How do you all keep your sanity when you sense it this early because it's driving me crazy.

Sweetdalii, don't be sorry. We welcome any all who wants to chime in the thread. I'm so sorry for your loss. We have lots of love and support here. So make yourself at home, kick up your feet and welcome... ?

I love your attitude Jess! Don't let this knock you down you're now a step closer.

Omg Christi I can't believe you're almost there ? are the nerves setting in? Haha I'm curious myself! This might sound crazy but I've been getting prenatal massages and the therapist does reiki aswell. My first time seeing her she told me the baby is very very shy but would be very outgoing when she gets to know someone. She also got a strong "girl" vibe off the baby. Be interesting to see if she's right.

*sigh* this entire waiting game is so annoying for me. Im one week down one more to go to see if af will rear her ugly head. This will be my first cycle ttc after losing my son back in the beginning of August at 22 weeks. I will say im starting to get some symptoms but im trying not to read too much into them. Btw sorry for barging in on the thread I was just so inspired by the entire thing and all the support you give each other

Next time Jessica!!!! Prayers and hugs!!!

Sounds like everyone is doing pretty good, I've been so curious as to what you are having Sarah!!!!

37 weeks this week, so I'm slowly but surely getting there!!!!

Glad to hear it because that's what I was thinking regarding the procedure working! XX✨

Thanks love, I'm definitely not giving up! I'm actually happy as weird as it sounds, because my procedure worked sperm can meet egg now...

Hugs JnJ ✨My heart breaks for you but keep being that amazing positive lady!!!

I can't wait for you to find out Sarah, to bad baby was shy... Hopefully next appointment..

It was a chemical pregnancy, so on to the next cycle... Im way to determined to give up! Im not quitting until I get my rainbow son!!! 5 little Angel's watching over and waiting for me. At least my Angel's can stay little forever and not grow up on me when I get to heaven.. ?

Still praying for you Jess remember what I said.. stay positive. Hopefully it's just IB ? I have everything crossed for you!

22 weeks now. Had my anatomy scan last week and everything looks great. The little brat had their legs right down by my pelvis so the doc couldn't get a good pic. We still don't know what we're having ? 3d scan on the 10th of November so fingers crossed we'll find out then

Thank you, Emma. I do too. That's so sweet, he'll be here before you know it. Can't wait to see pictures.

Thinking of you, hope it's your BFP!!!

I'm currently 27 weeks now and sitting waiting for my 3rd trimester growth scan :) x

Thank you, love!

You'll be in my thoughts and prayers, dear!

Not sure if it's my turn now, as I have light pink on tp.... ? AF due tomorrow leaning towards a cp.

How is everyone else doing??? Updates ladies???

WHOO HOO!!!! Beyond thrilled for you Jessica!! Lots of positive vibes and prayers this is your rainbow ???????

Prayers it gets darker JnJ! I agree with the previous post, your positive attitude has been inspiring ever since I started in this group last December.

October also marks 1 year since the last time I conceived. And I hope it ends with good news for the both of us!

Took a test last night on a Walmart ¢.88 brand and there was the faintest pink line. Took one with fmu was the same as last night I'm scared to death and praying for a sticky one... It's still very early I'm trying to stay positive but it's really hard as I conceived last October and in Oct of 2011 and didn't make it past 8 week's with either as they both were BO's... By lmp I'm 3w 6d so very early and so very nervous.. Please pray for me and my rainbow.. ?

Morelove... Thank you for your kind words and prayers. I really needed that. I try to stay strong and keep my eyes on the prize, but it seems like a never ending battle. Encouraging and being able to be here for others makes feel better that hopefully I can help someone else out along their journeys and forming the friendships is a added bonus ?

JnJ, I just scanned through your past 9 months. Quite an amazing read of positive endurance. Always encouraging to others and you seem to so bravely face your own obstacles. Congratulations on your recent nuptials and new home. I'll say a prayer for you tonight that the procedure works for you and you'll get that bfp so very soon! Thank you for being a testament for all of us who begin to lose hope. XX

BFN today AF due in 3-4 day's. This month Mark's a year since I last conceived. My fight is wearing thin, I don't know how much longer I can push myself! I was supposed to start my injections this coming cycle and had to be pushed back for next, due to the furnace issue that I am very grateful for it to be fixed but upset as I feel like I'm wasting precious time now because my tubes could possibly close back up within 6-12 month's... I just really feel like giving up but then I feel like its right at my fingertips..... ?

I'm trying ?

Bummer girl..... Keep trying!!!!!

6dpo no symptoms of any kind.

Action ?. Lots of it!!! Get busy girl !!

That's what you need! Some positive thinking ? and plenty of action of course ?

Thank you... I feel like its going to happen soon now!!

Excellent news Jess ( though I'm sorry about the pain) but it'll all be worth it to have your rainbow baby ? really looking forward to the day that you post your bfp. It's only around the corner I'm sure x

Yea!!! That sounds like it'll be really promising!!!! Wonderful news and baby dust ( lots of it ) being sent your way lady!!!!

Well my procedure was painful but I'm excited that it went well and either one or both of my tubes are now unblocked. There was no fluid behind uterus before procedure and after there was!!! Just wish I could know if both or one is open.. I don't want another hsg just to find out.. He increased my femara to 5mgs and wants me to start injections next cycle if I don't conceive this cycle... Now I need to research where I can find the cheapest.. It's gonal f 450 units I'm new to the injections stuff so if anyone has any advice or info I would greatly appreciate it

But I'm praying my little heart out for my rainbow to come soon!!!

Checking in Jess - how are you doing?

Lots of good vibes/prayers/thoughts sent your way lady!!!! Please let us know how everything goes!!!

Thank you so much Sarah!!

Hope it all goes smoothly for you Jess. And hopefully this is the thing that gets you your bfp...you'll be in my thoughts any prayers xxx

Hey Girls, my saline procedure is Wednesday at 1:00. I'm praying he can open my Fallopian tubes. I'm nervous about how painful it is going to be. He did say he'd give me a local to help with the pain. Please, please pray for the procedure to go smoothly and my tubes are cleared and we catch the egg this cycle as it's done on CD 10 and I O CD 13.... ? fx

Fingers crossed for you Elizabeth ?

3 dpo!! Praying for my bfp this month!!

No AF and a BFN! Just waiting for her to show so I can make my appointment.

I'm sure she'll be here this weekend, Sat or Sunday!

Any sign of the witch jess?

Hey Christi, I'm waiting for AF to show, so I can make my appointment for my Dr to flush my tubes with saline. Hopefully that will open One of them up or both. AF due the 20th Hubby's Birthday, how wonderful! ? How are you and the rest of the ladies doing?

Hi ladies! How's everyone doing???

Thank you, Christa! Ladies it's cd 12 for me I don't have much hope for this cycle but there is still some hope left in me. But please pray for a miracle for a chance to get a fertilized egg to slip by and implant. I still have Dr appointment Sat... ? so hard to stay positive after my test results

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Congratulations of your wedding Jess! Such a beautiful bride! ??

Christa- positivity is key! Keep your head up !!!! Are you on fb???

So sorry to hear Jess ?

But you will get you rainbow, don't give up hope ?

So sorry that you got bad news Jess. That's devastating, but half the battle, or more, is our attitudes towards our circumstances so you're over halfway there! It's not a matter of "if," but rather "when" it happens for us all. I know it ❤️

I just left the hospital, visiting my cousin who delivered her second baby today. While I am so excited for them, it was just a painful reminder of what I lost. I'm trying to stay positive too, but I have definitely been in a slump lately! You ladies are great encouragers and for that I thank you all!

Life may knock me down, but I get right back up, ready to fight! ?

I love your kick butt attitude girl!!!

I'm not a quitter, And I'm definitely not giving up! Even though I felt like my future son was ripped away from me yesterday... I will make this happen and I will have my son...

I'm not dwelling on this, I'm getting married Sat and it's going to be the best damn weekend ever!!!!!!!!

Thank you so much ladies definitely made me smile... Thank you for the hug's!

Ayla, we will get our rainbows!!! I'm not giving up and you can't either!!! ?

Jess- my heart truly breaks for you. There are no words to make it better but like I said for Ayla, know you have a circle of friends to lean on when you need us. Don't let this news damper your big day bc you deserve to have the very best wedding day!!! I'll be thinking of you on Saturday and can't wait to see pics and hear all about it!!! Hugs to you!!

Hugs to Ayla as well, we are here for you both!

Girls I'm so sorry for what your both going through. If there was anything I could say or do to make it better for you both I would in a heartbeat. You both deserve your happy endings and I hope it happens for you real soon

Oh Jess I'm so sorry that's awful news to get ? I know you're heartbroken right now and there's nothing I can say to make it better but at least now you know for sure. You can do something about it now...I can't imagine what you're going through right now but you and your future hubby can take the right steps to get the beautiful little baby you both deserve. And you have your wedding to focus on just try and stay positive xxxxx

I'm so sorry Jess. I'm also feeling out of options. 4 mcs and I'm feeling like I don't know if I can go thru this again. It's awful, and my body doesn't like to expell things even after they aren't viable so that means surgery. I hate going in there by myself and I just cry and cry. I don't know why this has to be so difficult for you and I especially since we have 2 healthy toddlers at home. It's just so heart breaking. :(

Well I am absolutely heartbroken!!!! ????????????

My right tube is completely blocked which I had a feeling that it was. But my left tube is barely open there was no over spill... I know he's going to give up on me and say IVF is my only option. Well I don't have that option financially and would not qualify for a loan... So I assume it's just over for me... I'm balling my eyes out and this was not the news I wanted to get 3 day's before we get married!!???

The first night was so surreal, Sarah... It's finally starting to look like a home. I have my hsg tomorrow hopefully all is clear, open and well. I'm praying!

Getting married in 3 day's!!! Eeeeeek!!! I'm so excited and nervous lol..

Absolutely heartbreaking! I am so sorry Ayla... ? Big hug's Love...

So sorry to hear Ayla ??

Ayla, I wish I had words to offer you to relieve your pain. I will continue to be thinking of you, praying for you and hoping for the best. I'm so sorry, my heart just breaks for you.

I'm so very sorry Ayla.... There are no words that I can say to make you feel better, please know we are here for you...... Stay strong XOXO

Oh Ayla I'm so so sorry you're going through this again. And on your birthday you poor thing...huge hugs xxx

Hey ladies. Scan yesterday didn't go well. Dr couldn't find a hb even tho baby had a 9 day growth spurt. Since my last one was on the 10th that must mean the heart stopped yesterday before the scan. My birthday was filed with lots and lots of tears. They drew more blood to check my hormone levels and we have another ultrasound scheduled for Monday to double check the results. But things aren't looking good. Dr told me if I start to bleed to save it in isopropyl alcohol so he can send it to the lab. That just horrifies me. Honestly my body likes to hold on to things even after they aren't viable, so I'm probably going to be making an appt for another d&c at my appt Monday. I wish I could just crawl under a rock and die. 3 mcs in less than a year. Fml :*(

Christa-

I don't have personal experience with IUI but I have a friend who did IUI and had twin boys! They only had to try IUI two rounds before conceiving, I agree with Sarah, if that's what the doctors are suggesting as a great way to get pregnant, then maybe try and go some more research!!!

@Jess Woohoo!! You must be so excited about the wedding. It wasn't long coming. Can't wait to see some pics you're going to be a beautiful bride ? how was the first night in the new house?

Scan went well yesterday although my usually very active little bean was having a lazy day ? didn't even wave at us. It was a very quick scan though....less than 3 minutes he basically just measured the baby and that was it. Next scan at 17 weeks although he already told me they won't tell the gender until 20 ?

@Christa no experience of IUI but hey if it helps you get your little bean that's the main thing ? good luck this cycle x

Hey ladies, sorry I haven't posted back before now. Been so busy with work lately and also just sorting through some emotions.

I'm so happy to hear everyone is doing well and congratulations Jess on your wedding and new house! How exciting ?

So I decided to back off of things so intently through my last cycle.

My RE has recommended IUI at this point and I'm just not certain we are ready. Still holding out for it to happen naturally. Maybe this time...AF due in 5-6 days. If no BFP this time then perhaps it's time to try IUI.

Anyone have any advice or experience with IUI they care to share? Thoughts and prayers are much appreciated. It restores my hope to see how wonderful everyone is doing with their pregnancies and it's exciting to share through our experiences! Thanks ladies!!!

Ayla- glad things are ok with you and baby!!! What great news!

Jess - YEAH for new houses and getting hitched!!!! I can't wait to see pics!!!!

BFN AF due in 3 day's... HSG the 26th On to the next cycle.. Busy next two weeks ahead. Moving in the house this weekend, next weekend getting married. Crazy month its been.. Honestly I can't wait for it to be over..

Glad to hear y'all are doing well. No problems and lo's are growing.. So happy for all of you.. I'll be on the pregnancy train soon. I hope lol ?

Hi ladied! Sorry I've been MIA, I was visiting family :) we saw the hb last Monday but baby was measuring about a week behind what I was supposed to be. I'm ok with that ad long as baby is doing good! Vacation went well with no cramping or bleeding or spotting. I got kinda worried cuz I didn't really feel any symptoms while I was in Seattle. But the day we left I felt sick all day and I was nauseous yesterday too. Hoping that's a good sign! Have another ultrasound this Wednesday and praying it goes ok!

I started to feel my son move around 18 wks. And in the wks after that he really started kicking me around lol.

Jess I used to have positive hpt dreams all the time, but unfortunately it never turned up that month. Hoping and hoping for you to get ur little one soon!!!! I'm glad everyone is doing well! :)

Started to feel a few flutters, but not very often :) can't wait to start feeling him all the time ?

Got my results today, no gestational diabetes for me!!! ????

Took about 3-4 business days to get the results!

@christi did you get your results straight away or do you have to wait a few days?

Jess I had that dream during my last AF... could be a good sign..Praying there'll be no need for the hsg ? I feel a bit surreal at the moment. It was at this point in my last pregnancy that I started passing clots. It's like I'm still waiting for it to happen lol. I have calmed down a lot and started really enjoying this pregnancy. Hopefully all goes well at my scan Wednesday. 13 weeks tomorrow ☝☝

Emma- it was like 20-21 weeks.... I guarantee your little guy is moving a lot but remember he's still small so I think it'll be a few more weeks before you can feel him!

TJ felt baby girl move around 21 weeks too so I think Jared should feel little man about that time too!!! It's so exciting!!

How many weeks where you when you first felt you baby kick? I want to feel my little man already, 17 weeks 5 days.

I've heard lots of stories about positive dreams like that that then turn into a positive test!!! Fingers crossed!

How's wedding planning going?

Girls - had my glucose test this morning, it wasn't bad at all!!!!

So happy to hear all is well with you ladies. If I didn't catch the egg this month I have hsg scheduled for the 26th of August. I also had a dream that I had a positive pregnancy test the other night. Hmmm would be nice ?

27 weeks 2 days. Feeling and doing good! I have my glucose test tomorrow morning, not too excited about that but it is part of the package deal right? Lol

I have two friends preggo and I've been busy planning their baby showers!!! I think I'm part crazy trying to do this while prepping for our kiddo!!!

Going pretty well! Haven't had any bleeding for the past 4 weeks thankfully, but did just get over the second urine infection!

Round ligament pains have commenced and so have the restless nights! 17 weeks 3 days :)

How's everyone else?

How we doing ladies?

Ayla.... Update?????

Good luck, I'm sure everything will be fine :)

Ugh I'm so worried! Haven't seen any more today so far but anytime I feel like I'm doing too much I lay down. I have so much to do because we are leaving for Seattle tomorrow and hubby is on duty. Have my appt at 945 tomorrow and I'm praying everything is ok and we see a heart beat this time.

Yes agreed! Spotting is totally normal! I think since we've all experienced a loss, you automatically want to freak out! If you aren't cramping, don't stress out! Relax stay calm and stay off your feet!! Hugs!

I've had brown spotting on and off throughout this pregnancy and so far so good. It freaked me out massively a few times but every time the baby is ok. Just had some again earlier but not going to stress out this time. Unless you start cramping or bleeding heavily I wouldn't worry too much x

I wouldn't stress! From 6 weeks to 13 weeks I was bleeding at least 1-2 times a week!! It was horrible but every time baby was fine :) x

Came home today to brown spotting but no cramping. Went to er and dr said my numbers were still rising but that I should take it easy for the wknd until our dr appt on Monday. Since my numbers are still going up he didn't want to do a pelvic exam or an ultrasound just to be sure not to irritate anything. Hope everything is ok, I've never had that before. I'm slightly crampy n lower back ache but it's def not bad. :(

Sarah - it is it!!!! You will have a beautiful bundle of joy 29 weeks from now ????

11 weeks today ? getting nervous because I'm getting close to the time frame where i started clotting and bleeding in my last pregnancy. Really hope this is it x

Ayla - 6 wks

Emma - 16 wks

Me - almost 26 wks

About ten weeks apart lol!!!

I agree Emma! Ladies, stay positive! It will happen!!!!!

Welcome to the group Cristea :)

I will be 16 weeks tomorrow, can't believe it Finally 4months

pregnant!! Felt like this was never going to happen. But it did so do t give up hope, it will happen for everyone x

I'm about 6 wks now haha, it's going by soooo slooooow! Driving me crazy lol. I guess that's what happens when u find out sooo early!

Emma - congrats again on the boy! Such great news!!!!!

How far along again are you ladies? Emma? Sarah? Ayla?

Christa- we couldn't be happier to have another friend join our little group! This group of ladies are so positive and supportive and truly have been an inspiration for me. It's true that if you haven't gone through a loss, no one really knows how to help, what to say, etc. I think that's what makes our group so special!!! Please stay strong and know we are here for you!!!

Jessica- sending baby dust your way!!! I know your little Squishy will be a great big sissy!!!!! Hugs!!!

Exactly Jess you just have a lot going on right now...you know the old saying...first comes love then comes marriage then comes baby in a carriage ? that's great Ayla, someone's looking out for you lol how far along will you be Monday? Christa, welcome to our little group you honestly couldn't meet a nicer bunch of women. They've not only helped me through the good times but also through the times where I just wanted to throw the towel in and give up. I'm so sorry for your losses it's just heartbreaking. You're obviously a strong woman and you and you're DH will get the baby you so deserve. If you want to add me on Facebook just look up Sarah Daly. My profile pic is me kissing my DFs cheek.

Thanks Ayla! Congratulations to you, HH pregnancy wishes!!

Christa I'm sorry for yr losses! I've had 3 myself and they are so god awful to live through. We have a great support system here so welcome!

Sarah I'm doing well! Not a lot of nausea or anything, just tired and headaches when I don't eat. I can't wait for my first ultrasound, they moved the time up from 430 to 230 on Monday :)

Thank you Jessica! ☺️ Good luck to you!

Sarah, I'm sure it is. Probably once we're married and settled in our house it'll happen ?

Wow Amber, thank you so much for such kind and empathetic words. I am so sorry for your loss and my heart breaks into pieces for each and every mother who experiences this type of loss. We all share a unique, unexplained bond through the pain this loss yields. I can't put into words how much comfort your thoughts and sentiments bring to me. It seems each day is a battle no matter how positive I am and every week goes on like an eternity. Some days are better than others, but even the good ones are hard.

You're exactly right though, and I couldn't have said it better. Having a group to trust and share your deepest vulnerabilities with is like salve for the wound. It helps with the healing and reminds us we're never alone, even on the darkest of days....There always comes a rainbow.

Hi Christa! ? Not creepy at all.. I'm sorry for your losses. Welcome to our group. Lots of love and support here to go around. Baby dust ladies

Christa, I am so sorry for your losses. It can feel very lonely when you are surrounded by people who can't relate. You are right the women on here are amazing, compassionate and brave. Each has a story and a wealth of strength. While we can all certainly relate in some form or fashion each journey is very singular. On my up days I'm optimistic and hopeful but then another month goes by and my spirits flag. My husband has his ups and downs and will be the first to admit that while he misses our son and what might have been he can never fully understand the emptiness and stress that comes from ttc for me. I am truly blessed to have him for a partner but also duly blessed to have an outlet for my daily fears in a place that is safe and where no question is too stupid and no fear too small. Welcome to the group, I'm sorry you've paid your dues. I hope you get your rainbow.

Hi ladies, I hope this doesn't seem creepy, lol, but I scrolled through this thread reading all of your posts about your TTC journeys over the past few months and I just have to say that I admire the friendship you've all established. The encouragement and support is amazing and I hope you will let me join in, I could surely use friends that understand!

I'm touched by the compassion I have observed. You really are a special group of gals!

As for me, I am struggling with unexplained secondary infertility and DH and I have been TTC for 18 months. I have 2 children, ages 8 and 10, from a previous marriage and since have had a blighted ovum, 2 miscarriages and now a chemical pregnancy. I lost our baby Feb 18 and it seems to be the hardest to deal with. I had a BFP 14 days ago only to find out that it was a chemical pregnancy. My OB/GYN confirmed with blood tests and today is CD 1 ? I'm shattered.

Our RE has recommended IUI starting this cycle using femara and ovidrel. DH wants to wait and keep trying, at least one more month, because I struggle emotionally so much every time we even go for an appointment with RE.

I'm sorry for such a long post, in just looking for some support. Our friends aren't supportive and have become distant now because they don't know what to say and the situation makes them uncomfortable. One couple is expecting a few weeks before what would have been our EDD and it's so tough. Family is uncomfortable talking about it as well and I feel like I'm draining poor DH. He tries, but it's a struggle for both of us each month and at this point, I think he just doesn't know what to say or do. We tried taking a few months off, since Feb, when we had our miscarriage. We kept TTC, I just backed off of tracking everything so intently due to the overwhelming stress I put myself under. I was becoming obsessed and I know that's not healthy. Last month we saw our RE again and I began tracking again. Sadly, no luck yet ??

I remain hopeful and continue to focus on the positive. I know it's not "if,"but "when."

I would love to be Facebook friends with you all and keep up with everyone's exciting news and hopeful progress!

Thank you for reading and best of luck, prayers of blessings and mounds of baby dust to you all!!! XOXO ❤️✨?

Jess I totally agree with Ayla..its probably just the stress and excitement of the wedding putting things off a bit. It'll happen soon ? Woohoo emma congrats!! Team blue ? can't wait to find out what I'm having. How are you doing Ayla? I had a little more brown spotting yesterday so I don't know what to make of it ? I don't have another scan for 3 weeks

No names yet. We can't agree on any! So it's going to be hard lol

Awww yayy a boy! Boys are so easy and awesome but I could be biased lol :) congrats!!!!

Jess I know it will happen soon for u! Maybe after ur wedding!

I have my first ultrasound appt on Monday afternoon! I can't wait!

Congratulations!! Awe a beautiful Son? have you decided on a name yet?

I'm having a boy ???

CD 1 ? on to the next cycle...

This will be my 4th One done in the last 10 year's... Finally someone who will listen and help at a faster pace lol

That's so awesome she's helping you out. I hate when doctors or nurses ignore what u have to say. I have to say my hsg 2 months ago was pretty damn awful, but the pain went away within a few hrs.

You will see it ? I can't wait to hear of your u/s..

So I had an appointment yesterday with the midwife at my Dr's office. I was addressing my concerns and I have a ultrasound scheduled for August 10th and we'll go from there, possibly a HSG because 6 year's ago my right Fallopian tube was completely blocked and increase in my dose of femara to 5mg . She also gave me the number to billing and ask about the cost of iui. As my insurance doesn't cover infertility. But I really like her and feel that she's listening to me. And wants to help me achieve my goals for a boy.

Yes we would love a girl, then mommy can stop worrying about getting pregnant lol! I'm so excited, I can't wait for my ultrasound! I just wanna see a heart beat, I didn't get to see it with my last 2 mc.

Woo-hoo!!!! Grow baby grow!!! And please be a girl, for mommy ?... So exciting Ayla...

Wow! That's really really great! Sounds very promising !!!! ???

My levels went from 200 to 1000!!! And they want to see me the first week of august which is exactly what I wanted! I can't wait to see our lo! They want me to do one more blood draw on Monday too.

Got my second blood draw today, can't wait to hear from the dr tomorrow! I go between elated and terrified lol. I hope we can bring this baby home!

That's great news!!!!! Happy 9 months to you !!!

Glad all went well. Fx for you to bring this baby home Ayla ?

Yes! Called the nurse and they did want to do blood work so I had my blood drawn Monday and I go again tomorrow. My level was at 200 but she said ur still early and it should at least double in the next few days. They Ajay checked my progesterone and they said that was good as well. I also went to my pcp and got my refferal for my ob appts. I'm so nervous and excited and terrified! I hope we can bring this baby home!!!

Thank you, Amber! ?

Hi JNB, fx for you too

Did you call the nurse??? Update please!!! ???

I'm calling the ob nurse tomorrow, I'm guessing they will want to do blood work again, then I have to go to my pcp to get my ob referral for the pregnancy lol. It's a pain in the ass but oh well! I'm really really hoping that they can get me in for an us before I go on vacation up to seattle which will be August 10th. My edd is end of march 2016 :)

I'm 4 dpo. Right with ya!

What wonderful news girl!!! When are you going to the doc???

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I hope it's your BFP!! So excited can't wait to see darker line's!!!!!

Think I got my positive today!!

I think I can see a faint line on today's test. Gonna post a pic

Hello Amber welcome to our thread. Fx for you.

I'm 3dpo ladies. Really tired yesterday and today. Creamy Cm and bloated. I feel fat and yucky. Still waiting lol

Glad to hear that the babies are doing well. Yay I'm so happy and excited for you Christi, Emma and Sarah. And jealous at the same time ?

But soon enough it'll happen.. Staying positive!

7dpo and almost no symptoms :/ just some weird feeling in my uterus like burning and slight low back pain and feeling hungrier than usual. Tested this am but BFN. Knew it would be but oh well. Just wish I knew! Usually by now i would have sore boobs so that's weird too

5 do right now... the wait is killing me.

I'm now just gone 13 weeks :)

At my scan Monday I was measuring 5 days ahead though :)

So happy ❤️

How's your little one doing christi? x

Big time lol really struggling to eat anything. I've lost over 10 pounds already...I'm just worried bubs isn't getting enough nutrition ? all I can manage to eat is cereal, mashed potatoes and fruit.

Yea!!! That's great news!!! I'm so happy for you both!!!!

Morning sickness still??

Oh sorry! Totally forgot to update lol yes I had my scan at 7 weeks. Beautiful little bean with a strong heartbeat measuring right on time ? my next scan is the 27th ill be 10 weeks

Sarah- have you had your next scan yet???

Well all I know is it was the one month we said we'd forget about it, focus on our wedding and not stress ourselves out. We only managed to actually DTD a few times because of work and I had myself convinced there was no way it could happen. Just shows the stress we put on ourselves hinders us. I know it's easy for me to say now but just try and relax ?

Hmmm.. Ayla, you bring up good point.. I also was thinking about what if he's not very excited and does that affect sperm quantity... Because we're so engulfed in ttc and BD kinda becomes a chore every two weeks...

It will happen ladies! I agree with hubby, I think sometimes we place a lot of pressure on both - hubby and ourselves- with all the ovulation talk, etc...... And maybe just not thinking about it will take some of the pressure and stress off???? Just BD- that's the fun part lol ????

Lol Jessi I do that every time and my husband doesn't even ask anymore hahaha! He did tell me that he doesn't want me to tell him when I'm ovulating because he says he feels a lot of pressure and can't perform as well lmao. Poor guy

Hahaha... Sarah that's great ? will definitely be doing that!!

Bummer... Sorry Ayla.. ?

I don't feel any different this month.. But I'm still praying for you and I, we are next!!! Baby dust to us lol... And what Sarah and Christi said "Keep our legs up" ?

Well when I went to test yesterday I started bleeding into the toilet (sorry tmi) I was pretty sad I didn't get to give hubby a hpt for father's day. But that's ok, there's always next month I guess.

When's your period due to arrive????

Did you end up testing today???

Hey ladies! I'm so happy for these rainbow babies! I am 14dpo and had a negative test yesterday. I'm almost never late and considering I usually have a 10 day Lp I'm a little confused lol. Not having any symptoms freaky besides slight cramping and I'm a bit irritable and emotional. And my boobs hurt a little but I don't even feel like af is coming either so I'm at a loss. I'm at my inlaws for the wknd so I think I will test Monday. I actually can't decide of i want to go get a test for tomorrow since it's father's day. I'm afraid of getting more negatives :( what do u ladies think?

Yes! Stay positive! And like Sarah said, keep your legs up!!! Lol!!!

Best of luck this cycle Jess. Keep those legs up girl ? am so seemingly I'm like realllllly bad at maths. Forgot to factor in my longer cycles ? my EDD is actually 21st of Feb and I'm only 4w6d ?ooopsie

Yay I'm so happy for you girls... I'm trying really hard to stay positive I'm 4dpo and just waiting ?

I suppose there's no magic answer lol. It's great your doing so well though! EDD 18/02/2016 feels like an eternity away lol. Every little twinge has me running to bathroom checking. Maybe I'll feel better once I see a heartbeat. I really hope this is it for us ladies and that Ayla and Jessica won't be far behind us xxx

Christi 11/9 is Braelyn's birthday..

Emma 1/21 is Brittney's birthday..

Lol but rarely do you see a baby born on exact due date

I just go one day at a time but not gonna lie it's horrible! I'm worried non stop and I can't even enjoy this pregnacy yet :(

Edd 20/01/2016

Hi ladies! Edd is 11/9 here , 19 weeks and 2 days today.

When r u ladies due???

I totally get the stress and anxiety!!! I honestly don't have any real advice on how to deal with it. I'm about half way through and still get nervous. I guess the best thing I've tried to remember is to just stay positive and pray LOTS!!!!!

Awe ya that's right Emma! So excited now. How did you deal with the anxiety? Like right now I'm freaking out because my boobs DON'T hurt lol. I swear every little thing...I might have to take up yoga to relax myself lol

Emma is a pretty great name ;)

Congratulations!!! Glad to be on this journey together, you will only be a few weeks behind me :)

@Christy awwww that name is soooo cute. Glad to hear you and baby are doing so well. What's your Edd again?

@Jessica that's actually the exact diet I'm on, also on verrrrry little dairy. And this group is obviously very lucky cause honestly I was pretty much after giving up hope. You and Ayla will get your bfps soon I'm sure of it.

I'm so nervous, started on baby aspirin straight away so i hope it helps this time around. Still in a bit of shock to be honest . My poor OH was in a state the other day because fathers day is coming up here and it was hitting him hard. So when I found out yesterday I got him a fathers day card that said at the front "There's sooooo much love in this card...." and I wrote on the inside, "enough love for another baby, congratulations daddy" and I signed it from our little boy. It was cheesy but it done the job. He was shocked. Then I handed him the 6 tests I'd done

Wow!!!! I've missed so much ladies!!!!!

Congrats Emma and Sarah!!! I am thrilled to pieces for the both of you! I can't wait to continue this experience with you!!!!

Ayla, Jessica- I think if you both often and know it'll happen for you ladies!! Sending baby dust!!!!

Update on me: 19 weeks today, been in Lovenox since week 5, been doing weekly ultrasounds for the last two weeks and we are having a baby girl! Not gonna lie, we had the name Emma picked our forever ???. So her name will be Emma Lea.

OMG!!!! Sarah!!!! Yay!!!!!! Hug's!!!!! That's so awesome!!!! Happy and healthy 9 months to you...

Emma I'm so happy to hear that baby is OK and you are doing great!!!

Ayla and I are last one out of our little group who is still impatiently waiting... It's bittersweet but our rainbow is around the corner... Lol

I went to the Dr today and I got another 4 months of femara... Yesterday I had a positive opk hoping and praying that I won't need the femara and we caught the egg.... I'm going on a high protein low carb diet per Dr's orders for the key to success!!!

Guess who's eggo is preggo!!!! Omg please please please please let this be a sticky bean!

Lol better get used to it. I'm told the first 18 years are a biatch ?? that's great news though you must be relieved xx

Well everything is good! Little baby just being a turd for mummy! I think it's a girl

Preparing me early for stress and worry!

Awe Emma I went through that so I know how much it sucks. Keep your head high though most cases of SCH pregnancies make it full term, you might bleed on and off for the pregnancy but I wouldn't worry about it yet. How are you feeling other than that?

8 weeks 5 days today had a scan yesterday and everything was good but last night had a bleed so now I'm in the hospital waiting to see a doctor. I have a sub chronic bleed so I think that's where it is from

But still waiting....

How is everyone? Any updates?

Ayla we're here for you.. Have faith all will be OK!!!

Emma Omg!! Congrats!!!! H&H 9m to you!!!

Update on me Cd 1.... Have an appointment on the 15th hopefully to get more femara but it's after I ovulate... So hoping and praying I don't need it the next cycle!!!

Hey hun saw on facebook you're waiting for an appointment....All ok? x

Hi girls, update on myself!

I'm

Five weeks 4 days pregnant & my my levels are currently in the 23 thousands! Higher that they have ever been.

First MC was in November then blighted ovum in March. It happened quick and I'm feeling positive about this pregnancy. I have a dating scan next Saturday!

So we started trying again this month and I'm terrified to get pregnant again. I have no idea how many dpo I am since I'm not sure of the day I ovulated, could be between 5-8. Af either due this wknd since I have such a short Lp or sometime in the next wk. Fml I'm scared. I can't have another mc, it will kill me emotionally.

Ayla!!! Glad you're back..

You never know.. It only takes one swimmer! Im hoping you get better soon.. Sending baby dust!!!

I'm not doing anything this cycle! No tracking temps, no opks. And I'm out of femara. So I figured I'd take a break. I have o pains so I'll just BD during my fertile week. And hope for the best. CD 7 today.. We'll see!!

Fx ladies!! Sending y'all baby dust!!

Hi ladies, Sry I've been MIA I've kinda been avoiding my pp app and tracking my cycle and stuff since I'm supposed to wait another month before we even try again. It's been pretty hard dealing with another mc and I've also been sick for a long time which adds even more stress! Today I woke up super crampy and with a back ache like I'm gonna start my period. I know the first one after a mc can be wonky but this would be the shortest cycle I've ever had. It's only barely been 4 wks since my d&c and I've had a little spotting today. Ive never spotted before my period but also never when i got pregnant either.. we did bd 1 time during my fertile week without using protection (let's face it, we aren't used to having to remember lol). I'm sure there's no way I could be pregnant again but there's always that small chance. Of course I have no tests so if I still feel like this all wknd and don't get my period I guess I'll go buy one. Oy vey lol. Sorry for the long post!

Lol. Mine run 28-31 days

I'm exactly the same. My cycle was 35 days this time round ??

Yes I'm CD 2

Did she come jess?

Looks like it jess just wish the cycle would start already ?

Well that sucks, Sarah!!! BFN's here too.. I say on to the next cycle.. ? it's going to happen soon!!!

Bfn on this end ? hope you've better luck jess x

Hopefully the witch stays away for u jess. Thanks for understanding. Haven't even told my OH that I'm late again he was nearly ready to have me committed last month ??

Awe!! Thank you, Sarah.. I'm feeling normal.. Waiting for AF to show... I don't blame you for not wanting to be obsessed.. I'm so sorry.. I understand, I would be thinking the same thing. Kmfx ?

I love that nickname jess it's so freaking cute ? how are u feeling? Still no AF here and on cd 31. Terrified to test I don't want to get crazy obsessional like I did last month ? plus I dunno it feels a little disrespectful or something knowing that Friday should be my due date with my son

Yes, lil squishy had a basket from the Easter Bunny and hid her eggs.. It was so much fun watching her find her eggs and put them in her basket....

I've been testing the last couple of days and BFN's I'm 14dpo AF due the 12th. Maybe next cycle.

Yes! Easter was good, TJ and I hosted my family, it was a good time!

Did your little squishy get a visit from the EB??

When will you test Jessica?

I had a wonderful Easter. How was yours?

Sarah, that sucks. I hate it when it changes. Still Kmfx... ?

Good to hear from you ladies! Still pulling for you girls!!

Did you all have a good Easter??

Ugh well it would seem my lovely regular 28 cycles are definitely a thing of the past ? wonder when the witch will show her face this month. Deffo don't think I'm pregnant ?

I'm feeling alright.. Nothing out of ordinary. Besides the cramping on CD 7 & 8. Trying not to symptom spot. Lol and not think about it to much ?

You never know jess hopefully this is our month. ..trying my best not to get crazy obsessive again lol. How are u feeling? x

Sarah it only takes one to be waiting!!! Kmfx for you? baby dust ??

It eased off after half an hour jess just little pinches now and again...do feel a bit sick though..hopefully it's a good sign but didn't bd much this cycle and no clue when I ovulated so highly doubtful ?

Sarah I've been having some cramping yesterday and today but not crippling... Hoping it's a great sign!!!

Mrsp, congrats !!! Another beautiful bundle of joy to add to your beautiful family!!

Christi, sorry you're tired.. Hope you get used to it ?? or you'll be a zombie mom haha

Cgiggy EDD is around dec 11th hun, so excited. this is a very special group I can see lots more BFPs happening this month :) x thanks girls

Congrats mrsp! Happy and healthy 9 month ?? girls I'm getting crippling cramps...like I can't even get off the couch it's so bad and I've a weird tight feeling down there. AF due Monday at the earliest...any ideas on what this is

Doing good, just tired but that's it, I'm so glad you are staying positive!!

Mrs- I see a BFP!!! Who hoo!!! Looks good to me, massive congrats! When's your EDD you think?

You are just another one to get great news with these other beautiful ladies to follow suit!!!!!

I tested today and although it's negative I'm sure I see something. I think i may be 10 dpo if I'm having a 28 day cycle like last month (although they used to be 35 days and after the loss went down to 32 and then 28 last month!) confusing huh, I posted a pic girls so check it out and let me know what you think. X

No. My positive attitude for this cycle is if it's meant to be it'll happen... ? thank you for the great thoughts!! How are you doing?

Jessica!!!!! Still feeling meh???? I'm thinking great thoughts for you every day!!!! Positivity is key! I know you know that, and I'm sure it's hard but I know you will get your rainbow !!!!

Definitely a long wait lyfe.. Gl and baby dust!!

I am day 6 in tww totally frustrated because my period comes in 16 days ?. Can you say long wait. But heyyyyyy ladies

Tww ladies... Kinda feeling meh... ??

Sarah that would be such a blessing.. I'd wouldn't care one bit... Beautiful glowing pregnant Bride's lol?? I'll take it!!

My planning is going great. I'm just going the flow.. ?