Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Has anyone been at risk of having your baby early and received steroid injections but went on to have a full term pregnancy?

I feel like my baby is bigger now with the injections. He was already measuring ahead but idky I feel like he's even bigger... My doct refuses to measure him until 39 weeks now. 😩 He was 6 lbs at 35 weeks.

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I'm 22 weeks today and it felt like my baby rotated positions today - granted they move all over the place at this stage, but I wonder if he will be head down next Tuesday at 23 week ultrasound appointment...

well had my growth scan today, hes measuring two weeks behind at only 4lb his head growth is normal but belly and femur are slightly smaller, now im classed as "iugr" and have to have x2weekly checks and scans.. has anybody else experienced this?