I'm on Escitalopram and Hydroxyzine for Anxiety, PTSD, and depression... I missed a couple days, completely not on purpose, and I took my nightly one a few hours ago. Well, I feel like it's so pointless to take them because I honestly don't feel any different since starting them. I feel like I have to put on a show for everyone. I feel like all eyes are on me and if I don't laugh and whatnot, they'll act like I'll just lose it and attempt suicide or something. I'm freaking out more now because not only is today my birthday, but I finally found out that I start work on Friday. I'm terrified and don't feel like I'm ready. I have to work whether I want to or not... I don't even know what to do. I want to scream, cry, run away, and hide...