Please Read and Give the Best Advice you can please.. thank you. Sorry for being so long.

I have a 5 year old son. He is ADHD , but not on medication yet. I want them to start with a low amount and find the perfect dose. He has to be doing something all the time. He is so smart and well behaved in school or out in public with my husband. I want to give a little more back story so you moms understand the situation better. I don't want to put to much detail though.

When you have a child in foster care, that baby automatically gets put in the system with you.

As they delivered him, dcs was fixing to move me to another home after I was discharged with baby b. I got an allowance every month and I would spend it all on him. I didn't want anyone raising him, I made that decision. I wanted to start work, but after a few weeks at the new home she tried killing my child. I called dcs but couldn't get ahold of someone so late. I packed my things and my child things and called my social worker who came and got me. There was another child I had to get out of that home. She drowned her daughter in a pool. Dcs needs to do better background checks. After a few days, the other child was removed. I was sent to another home with my baby. At this point, I didn't trust anyone. I haven't been around school in months, but had to protect my child. I couldn't stop moving so much to even attend school. After a year at the new home, I started trusting them. I went back to school and started working. I graduated that year. (I was only a freshman) so they talked with me and wanted to adopted me into the family. They told me I would get custody of my son if I did and they would be my family. I always wanted a family. So i agreed and got adopted. After the adoption, I didn't have custody of my son. They did and they started raising him the way they wanted to and I didn't have a say. I had no rights. So two months later, I married my husband. They wouldn't let me see him. Made excuses up why I couldn't, etc. I finally saved up enough money and took them to court. They brought him to my home a month before court and told me they couldn't handle him than a week before court they call the cops and demand him back. I had no choice but to send him back with her. It broke his heart into a million pieces and I couldn't do anything. When we went to court, they made me look so bad in front of the judge. I won and got him (he was fixing to turn 3) and I was pregnant with my second child. (We was using birth control and it failed) wasn't even suppose to have children to begin with. Not complaining, I love both of my boys. I didn't speak to them after court. They was suppose to be my family and love me. They only wanted my baby, and they didn't get their way. I was young and they tricked me. After a year and half, my son started talking about them. They are his family even if I don't want them to be. He loves them. So you have a little of his background, now here is my problem.

So about 4 months after he turned four, I let him visit and rarely let him spend a night. After a few months, everything was great. He loved spending every minute he could with them. I don't want to take that from him, but he started acting different (touching his brother inappropriately) so I thought maybe he is curious. Then other things happened that I knew he wouldn't know. So I called dcs to my home and her's to investigate. Also took him to child advocacy center to be interviewed. He wouldn't talk to them (strangers). Dcs closed the case after 4 months and put him in therapy to see if he would say anything. ( Didn't let him visit until case was closed and they was cleared) he stopped doing what he was doing, I explained that there is good touch and bad touch and that was a bad touch and explained we don't do things like that to your brother. We keep our hands to ourselves. so it stopped. He begged me to go and visit so I talked with adopted mother and she agreed to keep close eye on him. Now, two months after everything, he is worse. I was taking a picture of garden and found picture of him trying to take of himself naked and picture of him holding his private area and picture of his privates. I was furious when I found them , but didn't say anything to him, I deleted them and let it be. Yesterday, i was in the bathroom with the door open and I can see into the his bedroom. They was playing and laughing, than I heard my youngest son scream out into pain. I didn't care about wiping, I took of running into there room. He had his brother's diaper off, glove on his hand trying to put his fingers in his brothers butt. My youngest son was in so much pain I took him to the doctor and told them everything. I even called the Dcs worker back and told her there is something going on and to investigate again. She told me that there wasn't anything to worry about, they was cleared. I haven't let my oldest son go back and he is begging and I have a gut feeling something bad has happened to him and he is doing it to his brother. They shared a room, but I moved the youngest one in my room for his safety. I don't allow them to bath together anymore. Counselors can't find anything wrong, and he won't talk about it. They don't even know if something has happened or not but no one will listen to me. What should I do? What can I do? If dcs won't do anything, then who will? I don't want to talk to him about it and someone think I'm coaching him. No one wants to help me, but I know something is wrong. It has to be someone at adopted mother when he spends the night. When he is home, we don't have any company and we don't visit anyone. I am with both of them all the time and I know what goes on at all times, but Dcs told me there was a lot of people coming and going. No one is going to admit anything, I know this. But something isn't right. Sorry for being so long didn't want to leave anything out. Please tell me what I should do. My youngest son stays with me at all times, no matter what I'm doing or what room in the house I'm in. He isn't out of my sight and my oldest is always being watched. What if he doesn't something to a child at school? I don't want any parent going through this. Please don't judge me please. He has been through a lot and I know this isn't "exploring" like everyone wants to tell me. A 5 year old little boy shouldn't know this even "exploring his body". They stopped counseling because they couldn't find anything. To them, nothing is wrong. But I know something is.

Thank you for reading, sorry it's long.