Ok its 420am got up at 4am. Was supposed to be picked up by 430... Wish i didnt get up soo early darnit. I got up fast thinking oh my ride ill miss my ride and my rides late today... Lordie Lordie god please. Please get me through today please have this nashua medicine help me please i dont wanna get sick in their car they dunno im prego yet... Cuz i was gonna surprise them after i found out the gender but either way im showin and when they hug me their gonna look at each other and i know there gonna know thats not just a baggy ass dress... These are my only friends and i aint told them cuz. Well i have history with one of them.. And sad to say but im still healen from mine an his brakeup so today is really gonna be tough. . but ima pull through. God knows what he planned for me. So ima jus go with it. Thank u for another day on this planet and another day closer to see my wittle jellybean! <3 gosh i cant wait to meet u... And hold u... Ur already my number one and thats never gonna change. Sorry was rubbin my belly assuring the baby that mommy is here and loves him or her so very much. Just need to take a few deep breathes. See cuz he and i split up because i couldnt conceive... We tried lik i said for years and afte he invested all his savings he went back to drugs but is clean now we both are and as a matter of fact thats where he and i are going he goes to the same outpatient rehab i go to. And hes doing so good. I am kinda behind cuz i slipped up when i conceived. So. Which some of u iv talked to abkur that little situation. But ladies lets start the day off rite know its one day closer and we can do this! And in the pix is me and my best friend which is my ex but we still are there for each other to talk to