My birth plan was that I wanted to go as natural as possible. No epidural, strictly breastfeeding, no pitocin. I wanted…
My birth plan was that I wanted to go as natural as possible. No epidural, strictly breastfeeding, no pitocin. I wanted a natural birth.
5 hours of contractions went by and I decided I couldn't take the pain anymore. I was begging my fiancé to kill me. I couldn't stand, I couldn't breathe. I had to get the epidural.
After that the nurse told me I wasn't dilating fast enough. I had been stuck at 3cm for hours on end. They had to start me on pitocin to get my body working again. After I finally gave birth to my son, no matter how hard I tried, he wouldn't latch on to me. He would reject me and just cry. The nurses tried helping but he just didn't want it. So naturally, the nurses said, you have to feed him formula so he has food in his system. I was devastated. He wouldn't latch into me for almost a month. And by the time he got used to my nipple, I was almost dried out... I've had people talk to me about how I should've hung on a little longer to get the epidural. That I could've avoided the pitocin. I've had people tell me I'm not trying hard enough to breastfeed.
All I know is, I did what was best for me and my child. My baby is happy. He is healthy. I am happy. I am healthy. I appreciate tips on how to raise my kid but don't tell me how to do it. I strongly believe that I am the best mom I could be for my child.
#stopmomshaming
Esmeralda LLamas·Мама сына-младенца
Yes I had felt guilty the first few weeks and felt like a failure to my child but your right. We have so much to be thankful for . @itsjasmine
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