Just sitting here thinking. At 21 I decided to plan a baby with my ex, thinking he was the one and I could marry and have a fam w. Only issue was this decision was mine, not one time did I seek God in it, instead I tried to create my own reality. Truth is he simply was not and is not my husband.I did get pregnant, but I also saw his true colors after becoming pregnant sadly, and it wasn't pretty. So now that I'm able to sit and reflect I love my son..but i see that sometimes s person isn't always who you think they are no matter how long you've known them. Sometimes one needs to be alone, and get them selves together before jumping into a relationship.