having a panic attack. I'm a type one diabetic and I'm just short of 27 weeks pregnant with my first child, my little boy. The past few weeks as I head into the third trimester my blood sugars have been dangerously high even though I haven't changed any of my regimen. I go in to see my Maternal Fetal Medicine OB tomorrow and I was warned over the phone that they will likely admit me to the hospital for a few days to get my blood sugars down and stable. I know that being admitted is something I have to do for my son and I'm okay with that part, what I'm struggling with is the feelings of guilt. how can I expect to be a good mom for him once he's out of me if my doctors make me feel like I can't commit to being a good mom while he's inside of me! I know I love him and so does anyone that talks to me for more than a few minutes, my whole world revolves around this little boy, but I can't help but wonder if I'm his best chance. :'( I'm so terrified to go see my doctor tomorrow because he's not very good with bedside manner, he's very blunt and no nonsense, the last time I cried in his office he simply walked out on me. I love my son and I only have 10 more weeks until he's here, but I am FREAKING out over this.
sorry ladies I don't mean to unload on you like that I just can't post this to fb.
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@bellainmybelly, thank you so much! I really needed to hear this tonight. I appreciate you taking the time to tell me this <3
You are not a bad mom!!! Don't ever let other people tell you, don't allow yourself to feel guilty! For what??? Like you said, nothing changed and before it was fine and now it is not! Diabetes is a condition not a characteristic! You are doing your best and baby will be fine, he is strong and safe in there thanks to you! He is growing and living and developing thanks to you! You are his life source, the one thing keeping him alive! You two will get through this, you wanting and making that choice of going to the hospital is a proof of you being a good mother and doing everything necessary to keep this boy healthy! Don't you dare feel guilty for doing everything in your power and ability to protect this baby. You are a strong, powerful and amazing woman and mother. Just because Doctor is an asshole that doesn't define who you are, if you have any option look for a different Doctor, someone you will be comfortable with and who won't make you feel like shit but encourage you and support you. I am here for you if you need somebody ❤️❤️❤️
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