just wanna be able to hold my own baby,wake up to the crys and rock it back to sleep,hold and cuddle watching TV and before bed time,make it's food and feed it , watch it grow, watch it learn, hear it's first words, see my husband falling a sleep with ,seeing my husband face the day it's born,watch my husband bond with it and watch it hold our fingers I just want mother hood so bad im ready for the next step in my family it's been two years all ready