So I dont believe Im having postpartum depression. Im just not happy. I dont eat much anymore because there is never…

So I dont believe Im having postpartum depression. Im just not happy. I dont eat much anymore because there is never anything to eat or in order to eat, it means I have to clean up everything so I can make something; Im too tired for that. Im not happy. My daughter is 2 weeks and Ive been thinking of going back to work. I can pump before I leave and pump when I get back. My husband always works nights so me working mornings wouldnt be a problem because my daughter will always have one of use to watch her. At my job, I would be working more and making more than my husband does at his job aka then it will be able to be easier to pay bills. We are so in debt and cant even afford food or anything, barely gas for him to get to work. He has already stated that he wants me to be a stay at home mom now but we cant afford it on his salary. He barely makes 200 a week and rent is 700. Every pay check goes to bills but its never enough. We have to put a bill aside and hope that it doesnt become more when we are able to hopefully pay it on our next paycheck. I know I may sound selfish for my daughters sake, but when I cant get things that I need for her or need for me, I get unhappy. I want her to be able to be provided for but with my husband not wanting me to work and him not making clearly enough to cover bills, I feel that I have no choice but to work. Ive always made more and always had more hours. Idk why but is it selfish for me to want to go back to work so soon? Ive only been out of work for 2 months and Im hating not working and providing. I hate having to depend on my husband for everything when I cant depend on him for anything because he doesnt make enough.