I'm kind of sad right now because I won't be having a baby shower. The girl at the gas station is pregnant too and she mentioned to me that she can't wait for her baby shower. Then asked if this was my first pregnancy and mentioned for me to wait till I have my baby shower. I just got think that some people are so loved and have so much. I know I won't have the experience that a lot of other pregnant woman have but I do know this.. I will not allow my child, this baby to ever ever have to feel the way I do or miss out on any experiences that I miss out on. I love my fiance so much. He's such a caring guy and assures me everything will be fine and he will do whatever he can to make it that we have everything we need for our baby. I do know I am blessed to have him in my life and a 2nd chance at carrying a baby.