ETHAN ALEXANDER COLEMAN.. I LOVE YOU BABY 😘👼🏾😔 OCTOBER 8. 2015... I still cry. My sweet baby boy..

Ssooo I have two years to make another baby ( from what my doc says 😒 ) I need my boyfriend to be on the same page as me 😩

So I come home just to find out my boyfriend is cheating smh. A woman's Intuition is never wrong. Y'all I swear I dreamed about this last night n had feelings from times before about one particular girl. I have took too many losses. I can't accept this. Idc how much he try to sugarcoat it. I'm not bringing another baby in this world n not happy!!! I refuse!! 😡😢

I cry so much till I'm weak.. Literally. I just want my son back. He was my motivation.

Why me 😔... I mean well..Why do the horrible things happen to me?? I'm not a bad person.

Baby fever 😩😩

My mom talks about Ethan literally everyday 🙁. It's so hard getting over this hump of losing a child.

I've decided to go for my next child next year.

& on top of that a friend wanted me to come with her to the hospital to visit our mutual friend to see her baby. I just couldn't do it. I had to make up a dumb lie cuz i don't want ppl to view me as jealous & bitter or to be like " get over it already"...but I guess 😕😞

All my friends are having their babies & I'm just here holding an urn. Of course I give them the congrats text/call but I'm crying on the inside. It gets harder as my original due date approaches. 😢😞