growth scan today, it took an emotional meltdown to get hunby to come with me (work being difficult)
after our ectopic in dec and me being alone in the scan room at diagnosis i am scarred for life by the events that day and actually jave a fear of being scanned.
however...hopefully babys got nice and fat,i have tried my best ; )
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Hmm. .. bad day today. After being sent to DAU and nurse couldn't pick up heartbeat, she sent me for a scan and they found no heartbeat... now I'm in a room waiting to "deliver" the baby...
So someone contacted me waiting me to watch her son four days a week for $150/wk. I had to tell her that even if someone worked for $10/hr it only pays for a day and a half in my opinion?
I mean maybe I’d do it for $300? But the $150 I just can’t see if being worth it to me
im like that for scans from past experiences, i get really anxious about having them xx