It's almost over. Even though mentally I can't get as excited as I want to. Already living with…
It's almost over. Even though mentally I can't get as excited as I want to. Already living with major depression and anxiety from childhood trauma, the miscarriage before this where I was so ecstatic to be pregnant and lost it, and I keep seeing people on FB whose babies are dying right after birth or 2-3 months later and it's freaking me out. I can't mentally handle anymore tragedy, so my subconscious will not let me have any positive feelings about things so that I'm always prepared for devastation. I can't wait until the 30th for my 3D ultrasound though, I do wanna see his little face.
Rhonda Otero·
Мама двоих (6 лет, 8 лет), ждёт третьего
That's so sad.. I think you should still be positive and excited because your emotions can affect the baby a lot. I know it's hard because the let down was so devastating but keep your head up! Both of you will be in my prayers
mcharee·
Мама сына (11 лет), беременна (34 нед.)
Thank you, @rhonda.otero. My 11 y/o currently experiences some anxiety that I probably passed on to him. His father was abusive and he's not in his life, but overall he's a smart, caring kid. I'm trying, but not being able to take meds and control these episodes I have is very difficult. Unlike me though, he will be nurtured and shown love, so, hopefully he won't be affected too much. I beat myself up about the whole situation everyday.
mcharee·
Мама сына (11 лет), беременна (34 нед.)
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Rhonda Otero·
Мама двоих (6 лет, 8 лет), ждёт третьего
Just try to take it easy and think of your two little blessings.. When I'm sad my kids smile always helps. I know everything I do I'm doing for them and everything you have been through is only making you stronger.. Even though it doesn't feel that way at times.. It is