So today i was asked if i was getting my tubes tied after hunter arrives due to i shouldn't have anymore kids do to a stent in my main iliac vein i said no because i think it then makes it more real that i cant have more but my husbands gonna get fixed since i cant go on birthconrol do to the drs fear of a blood clot i know i have been blessed to have my first son and soon to be second son and that i need to do this to make sure im here for them but it is killing me inside that ill never have more kids never know if i would have had a little girl ive always said since i was a little girl i was put on this earth to be a mom which i am so happy i am i even changed careers to spend more time with my kids doing daycare but im 26 and ill never even get the chance to have that mother daughter relationship like i have with mine i will forever wonder if the 3rd would have been a girl sorry just having a moment and no one knows how i feel because then i just get a strict you cant do this again hunter was risk enough but again i am so unbelieveable lucky to have my son and soon to be born son!