Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I need you guys to be brutally honest with me. I don't want false hope. I want what you truly believe.

Trying to hold out and not stress because I don't want my baby being premature. I want a healthy baby.

What birth controls have worked flawlessly for you?... I don't want anymore kids after my daughter but I don't want to tie my tubes and I am not going to become a born again virgin so I want your best recommendations ladies! Thanks in advance :)

Due date

How likely are you to actually give birth on your due date, especially with your first kid? I don't want him to come on his exact due date because I don't want him to share a birthday with a certain someone.