Жизнь без машины

I just need to vent. last year my engine in my car blew. I didn’t have the $5000 plus to fix it. Because I didn’t have a car, working was hard and so struggled a lot because I used my car to make money. I’m a single mom, 4 kids, did everything I could to make sure we were provided for, all needs met, holidays a success and my kids never felt the stress or went without. They didn’t feel anything, life was as normal as possible and mommy was just home more. I literally don’t know how I made ends meet when they were no where close. I don’t have much family. 2 sisters. One wasn’t in a position to help and the other if I asked her to grab a pick up order for me I payed her and I used her car two times to work and I put gas in her car. My friend helped me when she could by letting me use her car and in turn I paid a bill/s, paid to get her car fixed when she had a problem, would wash her laundry at my home because she doesn’t have a washer or dryer and I also on many occasions got groceries for her and I cleaned her house. It took me almost and entire year to be able to buy a vehicle, but I did and it’s paid for so no car payments and it’s a blessing. I am extremely thankful for the help I did get and I always made it known by voicing it and just doing what I could in turn.

A month ago my sisters car was in an accident and considered totaled. She works from home but her roommate works out of the home. For a month I have either stayed at her house so I could take her roommate to and from work, her little sister to and from another city for her SOLs, they have had my car to do whatever it was they needed to do, I’ve also provided all the food for my family plus her, her roommate and little sister. I cook, clean, check her sisters school work, call the school, email teachers, i took on another responsibility. I’ve over extended myself, in so many ways. packing up 4 kids, being in a home that isn’t child friendly, us sleeping on a couch, all so they can be straight. Now she has put gas in my truck here and there but I’ve spent a lot of money as well in gas. I’ve also not been home the way I should to take care of my dragons, they are still taking care of but it’s not to the extent it would be if I was home. I told my sister next week I can pick her roommate up from work, but I can’t take her. So now she’s upset, now life is so hard, ma’am I was without a car almost a year, anything you did for me I paid for, and she especially didn’t go out of her way for me. Literally if I got a grocery order, she got groceries too because I paid for hers and I rarely asked her to get my pick up orders because we live in different cities so I used instacart, door dash as much as possible. I asked her one time to take my card that she had and get a few things for us from the store, she wasn’t feeling good and it took a week for her to even ask if we still needed her to go to the store. I also used my children’s dad car as needed as well to go to the store or take the kids to appointments so when I say my sister didn’t have to go out her to at for me, I mean that. Idk i’m feeling like she’s unappreciated and just a cry baby. She has had her moms truck for the last 2 weeks so when i’m not there they can go places, I told her if she can use her moms truck to take her roommate to work, i’ll come from my city to theirs to pick her up and of course she has an excuse that she can’t. I’m just over it. If i could figure it out with 4 kids, it’s no reason she can’t. plus she has her mom and step dad who are helping with getting her a car. They are putting the down payment down and said they would pay the monthly payment, it’s just them finding the car. the issue is her roommate has to get insurance to drive her car and she said she can’t until the 15th.. I can’t help that long