Good morning beautiful moms its tuesday im pushing myself to get up and go this week is hard my mother second b day without her is this week and my child visitation court date is this week they might take the supervised visita away making me closer ro that man who trully isnt kind ! Puttin my kid in his arms without me to protect so why did i leave him for abuse when im going back to square one around him ?
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?
Trigger. Lost baby Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?
Im so depressed Im at my moms and she told me ill never be happy in life unless i find myself Im stuck in my grandparents house with no free will besides going to appointments unless we can find places to stay the night .... Well im happy when im not in that house i thought i was doing good thirty weeks pregnant without my support dog without my mental and physical meds i thought i was holding up good considering the fact i was raped by my grandfather and im constantly reminded of it and stuff... 😭😭
30 weeks and 1 day today! Im so excited! Would love to see other Mama's belly at 30 weeks! ☺ People can be so mean when your pregnant everyone tells me im to small for 30 weeks and my baby is going to be born to small it really hurts my feelings and makes me worry even though my doctor said my baby is just fine and he weighs 3 pounds. People really don't understand telling a woman her belly is to small is just as bad as telling a woman she is to big. Wish my belly was bigger but every woman carries different why don't people understand that!
So I Just Got A Probation Violation Notice In The Mail That Said Im $256 Behind In Payments And I Needed To Report To My PO On 4/11/2016 To Explain To Him Why Im Behind But I Tell Him Everytime I Report That Im On Matrrnity Leave Because Im At The End Of My Pregnacy And They Wont Let Me Work Until 6 Weeks After I Have Her. And That I Need To Bring Him $256 When I Come See Him. Im Scared . Am I Going To Jail??? Because Ive Missed 2 Payments?
