От любви к ненависти: история одинокой матери

My name is Zulfiya , but many people call me Sofia. I am a single mother. I am expecting my second child.

It so happened in my life that I flew in for a dream, to move my daughter and live here.

But we are women, and we need love. So I fell in love with a man and thought we would make a good family, but in the end it turned out to be just my dreams. When I got pregnant he said he refused to be a father, so we split up.

It was very hard for me to raise my daughter and be pregnant, but it was my choice. I am proud of my choice, as my children are above everything to me.

But fate decided to give me a "guardian angel" during my pregnancy.

When I was 2 months pregnant, a man appeared in my life, I pushed him away until almost 7 months of pregnancy, I always told him to get in the way and live his life. But he is still around to this day, helps me now with the preparations for the birth of the baby and gets along very well with my daughter.

And for a couple of months now I feel like I've started to change my relationship with him, he's become my support, the man in my life and in my daughter's life, although I was very much afraid of that. But I found out the day before he was supposed to be with me all the time he was looking for a bride, and soon he is going to fly to another country to see her.

I have two feelings at play right now.

1. this feeling of resentment (because all the pregnancy, he is there for me and my family)

2.A feeling of complete antipathy towards men.

I would not want to have the first post about this, but I decided to share it.