@jamie123, @erincharlieconor, @mammyof3, @abbyrose, Thanks everyone. I managed to go in this time after trying for a year to get the courage. Unfortunately it didn’t make me feel any better. It was a stand in doctor (wasn’t told that on the phone) and I didn’t really feel comfortable talking to him. I still managed to try and explain how I’ve been feeling. He’s referred me for counselling but I probably won’t go. He prescribed me some antidepressants that I’ll start tomorrow then go back in a month to see if they are helping. I just went in alone. The only person who knows how I feel is my partner but he’s contributed to how I feel so I didn’t want him with me😒

I felt exactally the same but my partner made me go and I went in there and the doctor asked so what brings you here today and I just broke down crying I couldn't even tell him so my partner had to tell him, have you got anyone that can go with you? Honestly it's so common your not alone on this and we all feel like bad moms for it but were not I had counselling for new moms and it worked and I'm fine now and know how to deal with my bad days x

Can you maybe go to the appointment and write or text whats wrong maybe easier than actually having to talk xx

Don’t worry no one will think you are a bad mum infact it’s very common just not spoken much about xx

I have after my first baby, it took me a while to realise i was unwell but I went to the doctor and literally just burst into tears I didn’t even have to say much, she gave me some anti depressants and I was referred to a psychiatrist- don’t be alarmed about that though it was because I was experiencing other symptoms too. I was also referred to counselling but like you I found it hard to talk so only went once xx

I went to the doctor when Theo was 13 months.. Like you I was worried that they would think I couldn't cope. Id felt like it since theo was born. I'd only ever spoken to Przemek about it. But you have nothing to worry about. The doctor sat there with me while I cried and told her everything, it was difficult to get started but as soon as I started I couldn't stop talking. She sent me for some sessions with a therapist and offered me medication, that was safe while breastfeeding, but not during pregnancy, I didn't take it. She advised me on lifestyle changes to help with my mood. I'm now feeling so much better, I have days where life is very difficult and I struggle to get out of bed and get on with the day but I'm coping with it. I also have days where I am overwhelmed with how I feel towards Theo, I'm overly protective of him but I can't notice the signs that I'm spiralling and I can do things to help myself.

Talking to the doctor isn't going to be as hard as you think it is, and the relief you'll feel when its done is unreal. People will support you and no one will think you can't cope xx