Finally made it back home!! My doctor gave me an abdominal ultrasound followed by a vaginal one,baby…
Finally made it back home!! My doctor gave me an abdominal ultrasound followed by a vaginal one,baby was measuring 9 weeks 3 days, I'm supposed to be 10 4 today, no heartbeat. He said we could do a d&c or medically abort with the medication cytotec, and pain meds to control my pain. So that's the route I chose. He inserted the first pill at 318 and said I should start spotting around 6 PM , I started spotting at 6pm, so I had to take another one.. then I'll do the other 3 every 6 hours apart as its 4 doses. He was so shocked that this has happened, because he said everything was so perfect, labs, urine and all ultrasounds.. nothing came back abnormal the whole time. . He said the one time I put you on regular visits and everything is perfect, you miscarry. He reassured me that none of this is my fault and theres nothing that I could have done to make this happen. He also said that in any pregnancy after this one, he will monitor me closely ad a high risk patient as hes a high risk doctor just in case theres something to catch from early on. But other than that, he said that there could have been a problem with babys heart or with baby period, that wasnt detectable at this point via ultrasound because baby was so young. I have a follow up appointment in one week to make sure everything is out of my uterus! He said we will then discuss future plans. I am so shattered inside, the longer I wait a little more of me dies.. i pray that this will pass when my daughter goes to bed tonight as I dont have a babysitter for her. I wish I could just do it alone with tim. This wait is killing me... i just cant believe I'm in this situation yet again... I'm so angry with my body, confused as to why this happened when everything seemed so perfect, hurt that I'm miscarrying my little one, alone deep inside because I cant find the words to really Express how I'm truly feeling.. it's a whirlwind of emotions and feelings just being tossed around at once.. my world is so dark and I feel like I'm here but not really in touch with reality.. everything seems so distant, out of reach.. I cant wait for the day I can finally smile again and not shed a tear when I talk about it, or someone else.. I just want to be fine again.. I'm thankful I have my daughter to love on, and tim to love on me.. but I feel like such a failure to them both.. I'm sorry I'm just rambling on.. I just have so much on my mind... send prayers please. Lord knows I need them if I have never needed them before.
Lauren·
Praying for you !
cheyanne·
Мама дочки (3 года), беременна (17 нед.)
Sending prayers your way 🙏🙏
Juju M.·
Prayers darling 🙏 Miscarriages are so hard to go through. I'm praying you're able to heal from this pain soon and never have to experience it again.
Marne ·
I am so sorry doll. This is absolutely the worst thing to go through. And it is so hard to be a mama while going through this pain. My son was 3 when I had my 2nd MC and didn't get why mommy was crying a lot during the day. Just snuggle that precious girl as much as you need to, okay?
Sending you big hugs and keeping you in my thoughts.
Donn19·
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Aw Angikay! I'm sending you prayers 🙏
Penelope ·
💖💖💖💖🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Bridgett·
Мама троих детей
Praying for y’all 🙏
Pork Chop ·
🤗 🤗 🤗
I’m so sorry, sending prayers for you and lots of love 💕
Heather·
It’s normal to feel all this and more, don’t be sorry for any of this! Hang in there and lean on your husband for support! You can do this
Hibben ·
I’m so sorry for you guys!!!!!
kissKaya·
Sending prayers your way moma 🙏🏽
Lisa·
I am so so sorry 🧡
Gabrielle·
Мама троих детей, ждёт четвёртого
Prayers for you my love. My heart goes out to you!
Jen Van·
Prayers for comfort and healing. Hang in there. Take one day at a time. Snuggle that beautiful baby girl. Focus on taking care of yourself.
Candice ·
Многодетная мама (5 детей), беременна
I am so so sorry Angie! Unfortunately, I know the feeling all to well.
You feel what you need to feel to cope and make it through, but you are an amazing person and mama. It is so hard to not have answers of why. My heart aches for you. Sending you the biggest virtual hug ever!
Becki Scherger·
Мама троих детей
💔 o my gosh. There are no words. I am so so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are with you
BMAMA·
I feel this so much. In August 2017 I went in for my 12 week appt (was actually 13 weeks) with the certified nurse midwife. Had 2 perfect ultrasounds prior. This time, no heartbeat was found on doppler. Wait another week to get a ultrasound. Baby had passed right at 12 weeks. I was floored. Absolutely NO sign anything was wrong. Had a D&S (dialation and suction) to test baby for genetic disorders (ordered as this was miscarriage #3). Baby turned out fine. Got a full re-current miscarriage testing (full thrombolic panel) and came back positive for Factor V Leiden blood clotting disorder. It was confirmed baby boy died from a blood clot to his placenta 💔. I blamed myself for my body failing my son. I struggled deeply with that loss. I'm so sorry hun. 😞❤ I started Lovenox injections at exactly 4 weeks pregnant with my now 6 month old. I'll be keeping you in my prayers. ❤
Super·
Oh no there are no words that could comfort you enough right now
That is so heartbreaking I’m so sorry for you all
Sending you lots of love hugs and prayers xxxx
Lauren·
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💗💗💗
Lindzer·
Thinking g of you girl!💜💜💜💜🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹
Angi Kay·
Мама дочки-младенца
Thanks ladies.
Tisha·
So sorry angi u have to go thru this I went thru 2 d&c s and 1 miscarriage one of my d&c was 14 weeks the other 10wks so I know the pain and my first pregnancy was miscarriage o hope you're ok and u get thru this boo sending all the love your way
Angi Kay··
Мама дочки-младенца
Thank you
Tisha·
U welcome
Kayla·
Мама подростка
I'm so sorry love.
Angi Kay··
Мама дочки-младенца
Thanks hun
Kate·
Мама дочки (11 лет), беременна (37 нед.)
I’m so sorry you had to go through this, Ang... 😔 baby dust to you now that you have been cleared to start trying again!! ❤️
Kate··
Мама дочки (11 лет), беременна (37 нед.)
@angikay, we’ve decided to go with Blakely :)
Angi Kay··
Мама дочки-младенца
very unique, I love it !! Are u having her vaginally or section ?
Kate··
Мама дочки (11 лет), беременна (37 нед.)
trying for a VBAC but we’ll see. My BP was elevated today and at my last appt so I go back Fri and Mon for blood pressure checks. If it remains elevated, it sounds like they will induce me early.
Angi Kay·
Мама дочки-младенца
Fingers crossed that you get to do the vbac!! Sorry to hear about your blood pressure, hopefully they wont have to induce labor as those last few weeks are super important. Fx your pressure goes down.. but as long as baby is safe and healthy , as well as you, that's all that truly matters. I cant wait to see her !!
Angi Kay··
Мама дочки-младенца
@granolatree oh wow, well I hope this one isnt like that lol
Kate··
Мама дочки (11 лет), беременна (37 нед.)
haha me too!!! It’s no wonder I waited 12 years to do it again! 😂
Angi Kay··
Мама дочки-младенца
😂😂😂