I fucked up and started watching videos on how epidurals are done and now I'm freaking out. I don't do pain well or…

I have the biggest fear of needles ever and I was so scared with my first I made it to a 6 then begged for the epidural and it wasn’t that bad. My second I was able to have natural without he epidural!

You'll be fine. The pain from the contractions will cause you to not even feel that epidural needle. Thats how it was in my experience