So I've been thinking about this for a while. Definitely more so after the last chemo treatment and after the email from…
So I've been thinking about this for a while. Definitely more so after the last chemo treatment and after the email from my doctor with all my questions answered, I believe I have came to a decision. As hard as this is for me to say I've decided no more treatment. With as hard this last round was on me mentally and physically I can't do it. I asked my Dr. What my outcome look like if I continue treatment and he said 6 months with how my body is handling everything. So I asked what does it look like if I stop treatment? 3 to 6 months Maybe. So with that not being that big of a help I need to start focusing on quality of time instead of quantity. I can't take hearing my little girl cry after my treatment because she just wants her mommy. But Mommy is just too tired and sick. I need to try to make positive memories stick in her little head. I felt like I was giving up before I got the answers for my Dr but now I feel like this is the right decision. I would do anything to be able to change this outcome but I can't. I'll be doing everything in my power so that my babies know I love them with all my soul. I've already got them a couple of Hallmark recordable books. I've already started pre-buying birthday cards. And I need to crack down on making the videos for the big life moments. But every time I try to start I end up sobbing uncontrollably. Holy crap if I could drive I would be at daycare right now getting my babies cuz I can sure use their love right now.
Mary 🌟·Мама двоих (2 года, 4 года)
I'm a total stranger yet I'm crying. Make those videos for your children even if it's through tears. I'm sure one day they will understand. I'm sending you a huge virtual hug 💕
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