My story

Ok so for the past 5 years i have been struggling to have another child 4 miscarriages is how many I have went through maybe more that I did not get confirm by a doctor and it nearly killed me every thing got real bad real fast never in my life have i question so many things at one time I went through hell I question my faith I yelled at God and me and him were not on very good terms for a long time I hit rock bottom and I hit it hard I pushed everyone away and didt really talk about to many people or express my feeling about it all I was in a very toxic marriage and all around I hated everything then everything started to get better I still didt have any answers but I stated to fix my life again i left my toxic marriage and put all my energy in to working and rasing my son and then i found happiness again something I have given up ever really having and the dark cloud that always seem to be over my head was gone and the sun started to shine again then came the time once again where I wanted to try for another baby but this time nothing was happening so it took me months to go back to the doctor's but I did at first it seem like hey maybe they will really help me this time and maybe get some answer but no didt get any where we'll it didt seem like I did so I went to,another doctor and this time I got some answer and I have reasons of why but it don't mean it was easy to sit there and hear why it's still a lot to take in at one time and still alot I need to learn but I know I don't have to do it alone this time I have an amazing husband and amazing friend and some family that I know are here so please me patient with me and just let me talk because just talking about it really is a big step for me