Ack! I can't take it anymore!!
Ack! I can't take it anymore!!
This pregnancy is going to be the death of me. The emotional ups and downs already have me emotionally exhausted. I was thrilled to become pregnant, but understandably nervous given my history. Then the hcg wasn't doing what it's supposed to. Then the first us they don't see any baby and there might be something in my tube. I think "well that's it then". Then two days later we go for a follow up and the tube is clear and there's a 6 week baby with a strong heartbeat. Then Friday I start bleeding. I go in thinking this is it for sure. Nope baby is in there and has grown and the heartbeat is even stronger. I'm in bed rest for the weekend hoping that will help. Saturday the bleeding stopped, but now today I'm spotting again. I just can't take the constant ups and downs. It's wearing my nerves thin. I don't even know what I want to happen anymore. Either just be textbook and stop freaking me out, or if it's going to be another loss, stop dragging it out and jerking me around.
deleted-user·
Oh mama that's so stressful. Can I pray for you and your family? It sounds like you could use some positive thoughts at the very least
Ashlee Golding·
Мама двоих (1 год, 4 года)
I'd really appreciate it. I'm trying not to be too fatalistic but my history before and now this pregnancy are killing my faith in a happy outcome.