So Thursday I went in for my normal biweekly appointment (Mondays and Thursdays). Doctor totally hated my blood pressure…

There is still a lot of things that are not known about preeclampsia... they know that it has something to do with when the placenta first forms after the egg implants into the uterus... there is nothing you can do about it... so don't think about it as anything that you can do to change that... it just happens and no matter what, you just can't change that! You did nothing wrong! No reason to feel any guilt, of anything you should feel pride, you are doing everything in your power to keep your baby healthy, even when it's not comfortable or easy on you! You are doing the best you can for your little one... and that's the best any of us can hope for!

@babymakes11, absolutely!

@avahcruz thanks very much for the encouragement. I'm so happy Clara will be a part of our family's life very soon and I can put the rest of it behind me.

@babymakes11, I asked my doctor if there was a way I could prevent this for future pregnancies and he said there's not really a prevention it just happens and if you have it in one pregnancy you're likely to experience it in future pregnancies some form at least. Don't place blame on yourself! You're doing good!

@avahcruz yeah he said I was to try and get to 37 weeks and any day after is a plus but I won't go past 38 anyway. So I know it's GOING to happen I just wish I could have prevented this somehow.

@kimberlyyyy_the-preemie-mom thank you. I guess I feel bad because my other 3 pregnancies had to be induced because I was 42, 42 and 40 weeks. The last one was 12 years ago and I guess I feel like it's my fault for giving birth at 41 and making everyone panic. But it's true as long as she's ok I'm very happy to meet her.

My son was born at 37 weeks because of those reasons do not feel discouraged you're not letting her down! Just listen to your doctor stay on bed rest like told and even if you do this there's still a chance of delivery, it was in my case and many women's cases. You and your baby will do great!

Don't feel bad if she comes a little early. The goal is to keep you and baby healthy. Blood pressure issues (and the risk of preeclampsia or other pregnancy related complications) can be serious, and if you do deliver early then that's what's best for you both. I had my second son at 29 weeks because of severe preeclampsia and another condition called HELLP syndrome. I chose not to blame myself for not making it to 40 weeks with him like I did my first son, but my little guy is fine. Don't worry about it. 36-37 weekers tend to do great!