I'm feeling some kinda of way... I made my best friend the godmother the minute I found I was pregnant. Her sister found out she was preggers before I did. I have never felt like my pregnancy was ever as important as the sisters. And I understand that's your fam. But like I have always felt like I'm placed as second like not good enough. I told my bestie that I wanted her there for the birth. Next thing you know her sis asked her she forgets I completely had asked her and that's when I'm like pushed to the side. My baby shower plans have to wait to till February bc her sis baby shower was in January. But then she is due in February so it's like when are we gonna have time to plan. So I start doing my own thing. I mean I can't wait for people like she made it seem like in any given moment she had to stop her world for her sis and I get it. But I'm the godmother to her daughter and I did everything so this is were my feelings are getting to me. Then her sis gives birth and tells my bestie she is the godmother. Sooooo I'm chopped liver yet again. Oh I know Zayn was supposed to be my first. Sure. Oh then that's two for me. No. That's your first. My son is just a left over since the beginning and I have to stay quiet bc my feelings in the matter don't really seem to matter. Like what's the point in trying to involve people when it's like it make you feel like you got it I kinda don't really have to be there or help or make you feel like your pregnancy matters. But I made her feel like I had her back 100% when she was pregnant. And now that I am it's like a normal day nothing has changed. It's more about everyone else and if I say something I'm the one in the wrong. I have a lot to think about. Bc it's not fair.

-sorry for the rant but I couldn't hold it anymore