Sorry in advance if this gets too long, just looking for someone to talk to I guess.

I don't usually put myself out there like this, I'm a pretty private person, it might be my rising anxiety as baby time gets closer. Me and my sons father aren't together anymore, we met a few years ago when he worked in Florida but he eventually went back to Georgia. Last year we connected again and I went to visit him a few times and well, that's all it took lol. By the time I found out I was pregnant we weren't speaking and he was actually very nasty at first of course calling me names saying the baby wasn't his. It hurt a little bit that he thought of me that way but I was never worried about that because I knew he was the father. Well he eventually came around and told me that he wanted a DNA test to be sure but that he wanted to be involved. The thing that's never made sense to me is he's wanted to be involved the whole time, helped me pick a name, and even wants him to have his last name. I don't care because like I said I know he's his dad so I didn't have a problem doing those things, just seemed weird to me that he has doubts yet still wanted to do all of this. ANYWAY today is my due date and I'm scheduled to be induced Thursday, he says he'll be there but even though him and I are on semi decent terms I'm not 100% positive he will be. Now, I'm in no way doing this alone, my family and friends have been amazing but it does hurt a little that I may be doing it without his support. I don't want to have to fight him to be in his sons life and it breaks my heart that although they'll know each other my son won't get to have his dad in his life and know him the way he deserves too.

Not really looking for advice necessarily, just someone who's been in or is in a similar situation that would want to talk. I never really saw myself as being a single mom but I guess life had other plans lol