We've been TTC for a little more than a year. We've had two chemicals during that time period. It's so emotionally wearing to get your hopes up. Now, my baby sister has conceived with her boyfriend and is two months along. I am happy for her, but it's also emotionally hard on me. I don't understand how I can be so regular, like I always get my period on or before Christmas every year, and still be trying a year and a half later. Sometimes I walk away from the boards or trying because it's tough to try and lose out every month. Sometimes it's better to just do life. I think the problem is that as the months shift days, so does my ovulation day seeing that I always get my period between the 20th and 25th day of the month no matter how many days are in that month. My husband gets disappointed if I don't tell him when having sex for making a baby matters. Sometimes, I just don't want to know because the cycle of it all is wearing.