I am pretty sure I am developing PTSD. I can't go one night without thinking back to the laboring room and all I do is feel all the pain that I felt. Then I keep reliving the night Caroline passed. I really don't know how to do this. I just want to have her and hold her like I was supposed to. I have this instinct that I need to take care of her but she isn't there. I just want my baby here:/