my baby is 10 months. 90% of the month i am happy. but pms , and a teething baby having me losing it. he is mobile , grabbing everything. crying. i just want to drink coffee in the morning and wake up. i know its selfish. today i broke. he cried i cried. he screamed i screamed. i drove to urgent care. told a doctor i needed something to calm down now. he gave me adavan. but also told me to think about anti depressants. i am so against them. does this ever get easier. do the hormones ever even out. what am i to do