Melody has gone for post mortem today, it'll take a few days, I know it doesn't sound very much interesting or exciting. But that means I'll get to see her on Thursday. I've bought so many clothes and other bathing items and I can't wait to hold my Melody again. This time, I'm going to read and sing to her. Just like old times...
Hi Ladies, sorry haven't been updating. I gave birth to my little one on last friday at 23:07 after 2 days of pain and contractions due to pressary. She was born asleep and I named her Melody Aurelia. Her name has such a significant meaning to me. I have been looking forward to giving birth to her but not like this. The excruciating pain was nothing compared to seeing her not in my arms. I'd like to thank all of you who have supported me all this while and I hope one day I'll get a chance to be a mum again to another child, to Melody ' s siblings. I'm proud to be her mother, and I will always be her mother, no matter what people say (that my child is stillborn or born sleeping etc) and that I never get to care for her like other mums do. Melody is transported for a post mortem and I will visit her tomorrow to give her a bath and dress her up. This is the biggest blow in my life and I'd like to have a chance to care for her like a normal mother. I miss her so much and every little thing she and I used to do together when I was pregnant with her.
FTM problems... So I've made it pretty clear that I want to buy my daughter her fist Halloween costume. Her babysitter/nanny keeps saying she wanted to make her one. I told her yesterday that I wanted to find her something that my SO and I could dress up as a family. So I told her I am going to get it. She just text me and said 'not trying to step on your toes but I bought her two costumes'. She does this all the time. Anytime I want to do the "first" things with her she immediately does it. It's making me sad. Like I wish I could quit my job and be home with her.
Does anyone else feel like they hardly see there midwife second time round? I haven't seen her since 22 weeks and the next time I see her is 28 weeks! I feel like that's such a long time between appointments. X
omg... I'm so depressed my child cries more than she doesnt..The only time she's not crying is when she's alsleep.. but she only sleeps 30 minutes each time. she won't sit in her carseat, her crib, pack n play , her swing, bouncer nothing!!! I have to hold ger 24/7 even when she's sleeping or else she will wake up. I'm tired I don't get any sleep nothing soothes her I don't even remember the last time I had enough time to bathe :'( I love her so much but this is so challenging
I love her her name is Tiffany lol
Charlene·
sending love and hugs hunni 😙 xx
Mio·
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Thank you @charliebrown89 ! I'll let her know you send massive love and hugs.. xx
baby316·
Sending hugs to you and Melody too. Thinking of you 😘 x
Mio·
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Ah, so many hugs from lovely ladies. Melody and I are truly blessed to have you ladies here @charliebrown89 @baby316 xx
Becky Griffiths·
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so heartbreaking, thinking of you and sending cuddles to your beautiful angel xx
Taminah·
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Hope u are ok
Mio·
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Thank you @heavenscent83 , I think the "hug and cuddles" bag is nearly full with all the hugs I get from all you :)
I'm pretty much still I'm grief but I decided to channel the sadness to writing letters to my Melody which helped me in a sense because I didn't get a lot of chance to tell her how much I love her... @tam443 xx
Becky Griffiths·
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you can never have enough cuddles, I'm sure your little angel knows exactly how much you love her x
Mio·
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Thank you @heavenscent83 I hope I'm these few weeks, I can be a good mother to her before her funeral. I hate goodbyes. especially when you know it's definite this time and I won't get to hold her ever again. xx