Watch the movie Breastmilk on Netflix if you can! It's empowering! Also, I'm 6 months in and yes it's hard at the start but it's so much easier in the long run. If you're out running errands and baby needs to eat you just pop in the boob, no need to worry about bottles. I know that seems silly now but bottles are such a headache.
don't over think it. i did the same i was so scared & nervous but it was honestly so easy for me. my son latched right away i never had any pain or problems i also had an amazing support system. not everyone is the same but the point is to believe in yourself & trust your body is made for this. it can be hard at times but it really does get to be second nature faster than you think if you work at it.
it is work and not all babies or mom's are naturals at it. having a good support system in place and a lactation consultant your comfortable discussing your issues with. they are good for the mental and the physical aspects of breastfeeding.