Had a stressful day. How the hell you get over things that was done to you, by a man who says they care and love you. I…

Had a stressful day. How the hell you get over things that was done to you, by a man who says they care and love you. I can't understand that crap whatsoever. Sometimes we find hope in each other's stories. I was married for 12 yrs to a man, we have 4 children together and 1 on the way. Now this man asked me for a divorce while one of my daughters and I were on vacation in the Caribbean. We were doing well, just little random things that annoyed me, and the same goes for him. But only to find out he was divorcing me to marry our mutual friend who has been living here in the US illegally for 20 yrs. I spend two weeks away and when I got back home, divorce was paid for, they were just waiting on me to sign the papers. I refused to sign it but every time he looked at me, he would remind me that, I have something to sign. One day in June after being fed up, I signed it and a week after the divorce in July,they went to New Oleans to get married. I got full custody of our kids and child support. To this day I have not received child support from him. I loved this man, I loved our family. And I moved to NY for 8 months, he begged me to come back to Texas to work things out, he still loves me. But this man told me that he divorced the friend and he is single. But a day before coming back to Texas, he said, I have to tell.you that we are still married, but it is just to help her, no sex involved, no love. Anyways I came back, I was itchy and so was he, I ended up getting pregnant being on the pill and I just feel why did I put myself in this situation, Why?Why?Why? although it is almost 4 yrs drama, I am ready to walk away. I did everything for that man, loved him, had his back, take care of him and this is what I got. I am sorry for the long paragraph ladies.