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If any of you have seen my recent posts I said that I'm going to be a single mommy. Today has been one of the worsts…

If any of you have seen my recent posts I said that I'm going to be a single mommy. Today has been one of the worsts I've gone through during this pregnancy. So my fiancé left to party even though we were fighting so bad. He just left me. I went to my mothers. Well he is home now and I want to sit and have a talk and I told him this is his only chance to fix things and he told me to go to sleep. He won't sit up and talk. He said we can lay down and talk. I don't think it's too much to ask for a face to face grown up talk after a day like today. But he refuses. What do you guys think? He doesn't work in the morning so it's not about having to be up early.

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?

So over this feeling! Ever since I've had ds, OH and I have fought my mother on not wanting to give ds a dummy just…

So over this feeling! Ever since I've had ds, OH and I have fought my mother on not wanting to give ds a dummy just cause we don't like them and find he self soothes. For the past three times my mother has had him, she has gone against our rule and given him a dummy and of course I spoke to her about it (that's all my knowledge on how many times she's done it). On Sunday we celebrated my stepfathers birthday and due to OH working I had to do it alone which isn't the thing that bothered me. The thing that bothered me was no matter what I said regarding ds I wasn't listened to. I told my mother to sit behind ds if she was going to sit him up on the floor as he hasn't got the whole balance thing down pact but she didn't and then ds falls and starts crying cause he hurt himself, I picked him up and my mother just came and took him off me! I told her he can't forward face yet as he is below the shoulder line in order to forward face but they did anyway. I get it's her first grandchild and she's excited but I never got to share the news about ds's first tooth or his first attempt at crawling to the family because she already done it. Yes I know, I probably sound petty asf! I had to repeatedly ask my mother to take me and ds home as he was tired and close to the over tired stage. On the way home ds fell asleep, luckily I was sitting beside him and looked at him cause he had fallen asleep and had his head facing down so I quickly grabbed his head and held it up till we got home.

First real case of Discrimination today. 😯

First real case of Discrimination today. 😯 General Contractor kept asking where my SO when I was pulling off the job. Even said ‘How come he doesn’t come here and talk to me like a man’. Wow. I ended up calling the police because felt threatened in how defensive he was talking. Sheesh. I talked to a friend in the industry and told him everything that happen and he cut me off yelling ‘THATS DISCRIMINATION!’ Do I let it go? Or take him to court?

ladies I canot believe my eyes and ears. my mother in law my babies grandma has told me to get and abortion. when she…

ladies I canot believe my eyes and ears. my mother in law my babies grandma has told me to get and abortion. when she left I told my babies father that I don't agree at all, and he got upset with me so I told him that I needed to leave and go for a drive just for around the block to scream with my Windows up to let out my anger and frustrations as well as my hurt. I let him know where I was and to known I'd pick him up in time for work to drive him and he said he didn't need that. he has since told his mother how I feel and she has kicked me out and said that she's taking her son (he is 24!) away from me so that he doesn't have to deal with me or the baby anymore! he will not answer my phone calls or answer my texts so it's over just like that because I don't want to abort my child. he was all for it until he talked to his mother.

Ok so not using actual numbers.. But everyone knows I'm over weight since having my girls. It's no secret. BUT i was…

Ok so not using actual numbers.. But everyone knows I'm over weight since having my girls. It's no secret. BUT i was talking with my hubby last night and idk how we got to this but he said something like (not using actual numbers) no one should weigh 800lbs, they should take care of themselves. And i said so what if someone weighs 800lbs? He said no one should weigh that, they should be healthier. I said well i almost weigh 800! I'm in the 790s. And I'm healthy. I may be overweight but i don't have any diseases, no high cholesterol, no high blood pressure, i don't have a bad heart, lungs, or anything else. So I'm healthy I'm just over weight. So then we argued about him having an issue with my weight.. Am i wrong in this? Because it really hurt my feelings.. I've tried sooo many different things to lose weight but having hypothyroidism makes you gain/hard to lose. And my medications for depression and anxiety cause you to gain also.. So it's very hard to lose weight.. But i didn't even know he had an issue with my weight until last night..