I said a lot of really negative things on here before the new year about males and the fathers of children. I ask God to…

I said a lot of really negative things on here before the new year about males and the fathers of children. I ask God to forgive me because of hurt and anger I let out a lot of harsh things, and by reading and listens to music had to realize my sons' father is not my enemy and why am I trying to fight him (not literally) I would never win. So I gave it over to God. I don't want to be single and lonely forever and more importantly i don't want my kids to grow up without a father. It breaks my heart when my first born brings up his dad. " My daddy likes that, or my daddy does that" he's three. And he knows his dad has another daughter and another female in his life. Anyway I ask God when the time is right please bring someone into our loves because they need a father and I don't want to be lonely forever. So sorry for all the negative posts, now I'm just trying to keep my head up and enjoy life, the pregnancy and my babies.