I feel for those who have lost their babies I am so blessed to have my son with me today and being able to watch him sleep and hear his cry. I love you kaiden Lee Wade graham you have fought my whole pregnancy drs ,nurses,people telling me you aren't going to make it passed 20 weeks I remember a doctor from atrium told me why would I risk my life (literally said this to me ..) And I replied because mine isn't as precious as my child's even if it doesn't make it or even if we both don't or only one of us do I know that we both fought I fought for him and if I die and my child lives I'll be happy and peaceful because he/she had a chance and will continue to fight for himself and his mommy the doctor said I was going to be a very good mom and he'd keep me in his prayers. I sat down with Christian and I told him if there god forbid ever was a choice between me and kaiden to live pick him and take care of him and make sure he's safe and tell him how much I loved him and all about me . I wrote a letter to kaiden telling him how much I love him because I seriously thought while being in labor I was going to die . my ovaries and uterus is severely damaged from things I won't mention. But man I am sooo proud of us we made it little boy and you are my hero I love you so much.