I know I just kind of feel that way right now. So much stress and I really am not trying to look at it like that but it's just hard right now

you really aren't the only one

Thank you so much!! It does make me feel better knowing I am not the only one feeling this way! @oneproud_mamaof2kids

girl I'm 271 pounds and im only 32 weeks don't feel bad like mommy1990 said think of it as you having a life inside you as long as that precious miracle from the lord is healthy then nothing else matters I think I'm fat too to be honest I hate the way I look but I've learned to love myself no matter because I'm carrying something even more precious then a few stretch marks and a big ass belly and butt and etc that weight will come off it just takes time and even if it dont you me and every other big size women is still going to look beautiful no matter what anybody says cause god created us and he dont make people look ugly

@mommy1990,

Ok thanks! And yeah I am trying to think positive bc of my daughter but with her not being here yet it's just hard.

as far as the blood call the doctor...I too am a first time mommy and I am not sure. I always call my doctor with questions. @aprilcgutkopf

I too have self harmed and to stay straight I just look back do I want to go back to being homeless, selling my body, sickly and in jail...hell no! I now have a baby who need me in his life! I look at the positive happening and remember the hell I went through...im 2 years dope free and 1 year clean from self harm...im wasn't an easy road but a road worth taking! everything happens in time...your time is different than mine. but just every time you feel low remember your daughter! she needs you more than anything!

Plus I just got home from my appointment and I just had a vaginal exam and I am bleeding or was bleeding I looked at the toilet paper when I was done peeing and it was like a brownish color blood but it was only on the toilet paper

Thank you!! I am trying to stay positive it's just everything is adding up and the stress is making me not want to live. I suffer from depression and I have anxiety and I have a lot of issues I am a recovering alcoholic and I smoked a lot of cigs and self harmed myself since I was 8. It's been crazy and I just feel the need to to those harmful things but I know there not good for my baby... I wish I could find something to always keep me from thinking bad thoughts. How do you stay clean when you feel like shit?? Maybe I could have some of the coping skills you have.. @mommy1990

*won not wine @aprilcgutkopf

I too have fought and wine over an eating disorder..I am also a recovering heroin addict. fuck exes they are an ex for a reason. things will get better...right now focus on you and your little girl. as far as weight you ca work on it in a healthy way once your little one is here. but I will tell you you can't stress out! however you're feeling your baby is feeling times 10! stay positive...your baby is counting on you! if ya ever need to chat feel free to send me a message! @aprilcgutkopf

I am trying it's so hard I am under so much stress maybe that's why my daughter won't come out... I battled Bulimia for three years and so that's one reason I thought I wouldn't be able to get pregnant but I did which is weird but I love my daughter so much. And yeah I know my ex was not the best but it's so hard he is half the reason I am so stressed out. I love him and he is always going to be half of me bc of our daughter that he doesn't want anything to do with. Urg it's so stressful! But thanks @mommy1990

hey..im 300 plus but the way I see it is I have a life inside me and as long as he's healthy that's all that matters. us curvy girls can work on it once the baby's here. as far as your ex FUCK him! some men can't see past the outside..what i am saying embrace your body and fuck what ayone else says! btw...looked at your pics and you are beautiful!