Rant or i dunno but im getting this off my chest..maybe venting. today hubby and i went to bed. after doing our own things i flip over and lay next to him. and he is on fb and im asking bout who he is looking at..and he starts talking to me...and his breath full of alcohol fumes sends me into green puke mode...so bad i cant even talk. my throat constricts...im a big girl prior to pregnacy..and at my five months im already feeling the round ligament pains when i move side to side so i felt immobile and unable to tell hubby to stop talking cus his breath was killing me. so i gently pushed his chin up to make him stop talking then i used the blanket to cover my nose and through it asked if he had remembered to wash his mouth..he has been going to bed smelling like alcohol almost daily. and ive asked him to wash his mouth daily cus ill be smelling him all night long. so its not my first time telling him to do it, but he got very angry at me for pushing his mouth shut. he said i was being rude to him. and now he is sleeping and ignoring me. :(.
im confused as to whether i really was making a mistake or not.
i understand perhaps he needs another way of taking out stress. pray also. you guys are such a cute couple
ive mentioned his increase in alcohol. and ive also made it clear in tired of asking him to stop. been through hell and he stopped completely five years ago..then as time has gone by he is back to drinking more and more...and now he has been drinking everyday. i dont think i share my passions for him anymore because he has made it clear to me that i fall short of what she desires in me..and thus i have no right to demand of him what i believe is best. so i just remind hinbof how i feel. and yesterday he seemed to try to refrain from drinking as much as he could have. on our way home i told him i appreciated the restraint he showed. so im hoping that he is trying to lessen it..on his own desire for self control..but being addcited to food that isnt healthy...myself....i find it may be impossible for him to stop completely specially due to our lives being so full of other stresses. mainly due to my own health.
he awoke being really nice...i did make him say sorry. and he made me breakfast which i thought was him saying it again. but yeah. im not going to let him forget my feelings matter. it just hard cus it may be the alcohol. @yahuahsdaughter
yea gurl i know how it is. mt hubby also has narcicistic traits. we gurls have to stand up and let them know its not like that and we wont put up with this. we are equal in God's eyes and thats all that matters.
yeah he sucks. tomorrow is another day. and im already feeling over him. like this whole alcoholic problems makes me feel hopeless. i wish he would realize he is being mean. n if he does know , i wish he'd feel shame for being with me like this. but imma ignore him and do my own things tomorrow. he being mean to me breaks my heart because ive been so sensitive lately. its not even funny. but my intellectual part understands this is the man he is. he can be callouse and freak with my mind because of his narcisistic views. hugz @yahuahsdaughter thank you for giving me my reality back. not letting him paint me as a b$&$*.
ive given up on him not drinking. ive been married to him and he and i have gone through it 100xs i hate the smell. :(. I feel like he doesnt want to fight ot mayb cant fight it better. or he feels that since i have so many defects his are forgiven. but it sucks to smell him. right now and all through the night i make him face away from me. and i put my fan and his stench isnt bothering me. its the fact that he left washed his mouth and then went to sleep ignoring me saying i was rude that hurts my feelings...because he doesnt even realise he is the one in the wrong. not i.
no you are pregnant so he should know you are sensitive to smells and evenso its disrespectful to your wife to come home and go to sleep in that state. you should have a talk with him
thanks..im really feeling bad cus he made me seem rude..but i do feel he wasnt being considerate of my state.
he shouldn't be drinking daily, firstly... and secondly if he does he should AT LEAST have the common courtesy to wash his stanky mouth