I'm ready to go back on my medication once Jaxon is born, my anger is really getting the best of me, these mood swings, just everything, especially now with the hormones making it 100x worse. Some people make jokes about being bipolar but actually being diagnosed & the day to day struggle with the disorder is overall exhausting, not just for me but for my fiancé as well. I wish I could just snap my fingers and everything be normal but the reality is I can't. I just have to live with the fact that I have a bipolar disorder and simply NOT let it control my life.