He's not home. I don't know if he is still working or with her. I just keep wanting to call or text to see if he is even coming back. I know I don't want to know the answer. Im tried of the not knowing. Im tried of feeling like I don't matter. That my kids don't matter. He doesn't take into consideration the fact that his kids need him. He much rather try and work in something that we all know won't last. He's been playing head games with everyone.

Haven't been on in awhile. My life has been so confusing. I'm not sure that my husband wants to leave us. He keeps doing and saying things that are leading me to believe that we can work on things. I'm not sure if my wanting things to work are clouding my judgment or if he genuinely wants to. He is the type of guy to take care of his responsibilities and want to be there for people. We have been intimate 5 times in 5 days. He told me he wants to get me a gift for Mother's Day and he wants to hav...

I'm struggling today. I sat my 13yr old daughter down last night and told her about her dad and I. My heart is so broken for her. She is so angry with him. She doesn't want to leave her friends because alone I can't afford this house. She mad because she won't be able to see him everyday anymore. I am there to sweep up the pieces of our hearts that her dad has broken and try to piece them back together. 💔💔💔

Is it sad that I'm going to miss the great sex we have had?? If he would just give me that on a as needed basis I would be fine.

How do I do this?? How do I just move on after 14yrs together?? Does the hurt last?? Does the love fade?? How can I coparent with someone I still truly love but can't have anymore?? I just want to scream and punch and cry!!!! I don't want to lose my family. Why can't he love me?? Why are we not enough?? Was I that bad of a wife?? I'm struggling to just look ok with all of this but deep down I'm broken

It's over. I can't keep looking over my shoulder thinking he is doing something with someone else. It's a mutual agreement and we are now going to focus on being parents instead of trying to make it as husband and wife.

So the other one texted me yesterday asking if our kids could still be friends because both of our girls have a hard time making friends. I told her that I didn't mind it but she was to only communicate with me about the kids. If they wanted to hang out we would have to meet up somewhere other than my house. She informed me that she wanted nothing to do with my husband and that she was so sorry for hurting me and the kids. Now my husband is mad that I am communicating with her about the kids. Ke...

So a lot happened last night and this morning. He got here at a fairly decent time last night and we sat down and talked. I was weak and begged him to stay which didn't work. So I put up my wall and started to shield myself from the pain. We started talking about stuff and he informed me that him and his "friend" who is a girl were telling each other that they loved each other and after he moved out he wanted to start a relationship with her. So I told him that my 2yr old would not be coming to ...

Having a rough time today. Took Squish for her allergy testing today and the only thing she isn't allergic to is food. They gave her and epi pen and a nasal spray to go along with her regular allergy med. We are also going to start her on allergy shots in 2 weeks. I feel like I have just screwed up all around with her. With all her other medical issues, we are just adding more to her plate.

Can't sleep. Nervous about Squish's scratch test today. Hopefully her uticaria pigmentosa doesn't flare up. She's gonna be miserable.