Am I wrong to call myself a mother? I kinda feel like I should leave that title to those who carry full term and raise their child/children 😔

Some jackass had the audacity to tell me I'm not allowed to call myself a mother because I have nothing to show for it. I wish I could show you my child...I wish you could understand my pain..I wish you understood how hard it is to see all my friends having babies...and telling me it's all a cry for attention? BS. I don't want attention. I just want people to understand why I'm so different now. Why I'm so broken. 😔 I cried for an hour and a half because of it.

I'm back after almost 6 months..I figured this was the best place to express how I feel without being shut down..

I have yet to go to sleep... been up all night because of this pounding headache 😞

Would it be weird if I wanted to give my baby a name..even though I was only 9 weeks? Obviously it would be gender-neutral because we didn't know what we were having..but I want to get a tattoo in remembrance..opinions?

Actually got out of bed today and went to a birthday party...it was good to get out, but I just felt like crap and I wanted to go home.
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These sad love songs seems to be the only music helping me..

The doctor told me after the surgery, I'd have bleeding like a heavy period and normal menstrual cramps..I haven't experienced either. But I've been reading and some people don't bleed, but sometimes it takes a couple days for the bleeding to start..I'm having a really hard time..I watch Netflix all day to help distract me. I've talked my boyfriend on the phone once since I've been at my mom's.. but we've texted every day..I just miss him 😞 I'm sad for what could have been.

Having a D&C... the doctor said there's still a lot of tissue that my body won't pass on its own.. pretty scared. I've never been sedated before...

Back in the hospital...I'm bleeding a lot😞